Between Darkness and Light

Door

2010-03-20T19:23:00.000-07:00

Life is full of doors.
These doors could be some obstacle, barrier, curses in your life.
Our life is just like a quest of searching and seeking for the right key to the right door.
Every door opened your area will get bigger and there will be more place to explore.
The bigger the room gets the more difficult to find the next key to another door.

Sometime you misplace the key
Sometime you throw the key away
Sometime you just get too tired to find the key

and... Some doors is just not to be open.......................................

Recently the doors in my life is starting to open by itself. Am I am having more and more different view of everything around me?

Work: i am opening the doors to my boss approval in me. My fasting had make me more focus in what i am doing. Everything is great around, i am moving closer and closer to the vision i had. I know it will not be easy but i am moving, "seeking" for the key......

Haha "bringer of happiness" and a "seeker" hahaaa. Ros this sound very familiar ?

Many thing is flowing in my mind. i feel that there is so many things to do.
so many things to achieve.
My faith is strong, i will destroy all the doors! and break thru even futher !
For you i will do it, i will glorified you!

DONT stop GO find the key of life..............................

Super Randomness

2010-02-21T07:10:00.002-08:00

I am in a super randomness mode now.
Like always, i would said so many things had happen, too lazy and too tired to keep my blog updated.
SO be rdy for a series of randomness and messiness..!!

Where should i start.. die la lol...

okok as usual work work work.
The pace in my work is getting faster and faster, or maybe i am getting slower and slower lol. After CNY, everyday i had been working at least 10 hours straight... But comparing to my boss, i am still having a life. Since over the weekend i had been hanging out over butterfactory til 6am.. Still trying hard to maintain a healthy lifestyle.

I am a lazy person to things that i am not gd at or thing that simply doesnt interest me.
In order to make myself hardworking, I force myself to take up responsibility and role in the company.
Even thought i havnt got the recognition from my boss, i had spread my influence through out the company. initially, I wasnt in the organizing team for the company DND. But after my role in the CNY event and charity, i was somehow included in the organizing committee.

At first i thought WTH again... i dont even have time to do my own stuff.
On second thought, it is another opportunity for me to climb up the corporate ladder. This time round i must be able to cope well on my own work too. soon i am going to be no life..

Other then tat... still working hard .. drink less be healthy ba lol

light and darkness

2010-02-04T05:23:00.001-08:00

it has been quite some time since i blog.

My life is getting busier everyday and somehow i am becoming happier too.
I could be a workaholic.

My work in Phillip is getting heavier as the time passes IT IS ONLY 2month plus wth.. Heavy in terms of the amount understanding i need to have in the financial world. So many stuff i dont even have a slightest bit of understanding. In term of my area of work i had gotten a hang of it, and now my daily work could be settle in the afternoon. Now i trying to settle my department website to do abit of marketing work for our product.
I am quite delighted that my manager let me talk to an external client today, i remember the first time i talk to the client i kana scold like mad.. Hey i had never been in this line ho.
She did correct a few of my mistake, practise makes perfect... i think i am ready to handle external client now. (external clients are dangerous they complain to MAS lol)

Side track abit, my calling smoking skill is really gd. 9 out of 10 times i can trick someone thinking that i am some sale person calling them lol. These 2 months of my calling time is like my normal whole year of calling time Wahahha.

Some bad thing happen, i guess i was too rush and i didnt pass my test... Got to buck up in reading and studying.. a LONG LONG WAY TO GO.

Had KPI session with bunch of directors today, why the hell am i ask to sit in...

But i had been pushing myself to the limit. I took up alot of extra work. Or you could say that my current "Yes" nature is giving me alot of work.

I was informed last week Friday to be the OIC of the CNY Event..Happy I had the favour of the lord!!!With such little time, and little man power.. IT seems impossible at first.
Within the first few days, I got to know alot of directors.
i even got the favour of the most powerful woman in my company..
Proven I am a auntie killer !! WAHAHAH...

And most of the stuff had been settled and organized by 2day.
Another happy things is that i always wanted to do something good for the public, ever since i CHANGE. . .. lol
Currently i am also organizing a charity drive for the Haiti earthquake Victims...
I really hope i could collect a huge fund and help those people over there..HEHE

Lots of stuff to learn lots of stuff to do.. hope i would be able to do more to help and serve more people hehe .. thats the vision i had now .. and more to come.

And why did i name my entry as light and darkness..
I understand darkness: 7sins... experience...
I used my anger and revengeful strength to push through my starting point of my life..
it doesnt feel gd even i manage to climb up lol..
Been through the darkest moment of my life..

I understand light beautiful life of being positive and nice..
It pull me through my darkest moment of my life ..

Now i am dangling in between. some words, some ones is interfering my believe ..
i feel some how tired sad .. tired of human..

Some out there may have heard of the story about lucifer, the lord of darkness, some call him the devil himself..
Lucifer was an fallen angel.
one of a few story that i seen was describing that Lucifer was one of the most power angel. He love god alot but he despise human. Man are full of flaws, full of sin...
He dont understand why god love Man so much, he dont understand why. End up he disobey the lord and become a fallen angel..

Some how i understand how Lucifer feels.. hahah
I will still try my best to love just like how my lord loves his people.. But i am a christian of my own views no one and nothing can change how i think.

I do feel one of my dearest friend, if he see this..
i would want him to learn more about chirstianity... it hurts that he had so much misunderstanding ..

BUSY

2010-01-17T07:32:00.000-08:00

NOt time for blogging .. busy ... tests..

Taking all the trading qualification.. CFMAS ...
and tmr morning i got SBL test from my boss..
i try to squeese sometime soon to write..

HEEHEH
WORLD PEACE !!

oo i got a book from fu and sab.. "I KISS DATING GoodBYE"
Hmm sign? lol... we will see...

Nitez friends and everyone hehe

WIsdom... Good or evil?

2010-01-12T07:33:00.001-08:00

Before i write, this is not a emo post lol... i no longer emo!!! ok .. hahaha
Just kidding... it is just...
A single thought had been wondering around my mind for the last few weeks..

This question: IS wisdom is good or bad?
Is knowledge good of bad.?

We human had been constantly seeking knowledge.. wanting to know more...

But if you think of it, it is knowledge that tell us what is good and bad..
And it is bad, evil that feeds on wisdom.
The 7 sins feeds on wisdom... it is because of knowledge and wisdom evil is born...

Viewing from a religious point of view, when god created Adam and eve.
Eve was tempted by the snake and bought the apple from the forbidden tree to Adam..
By eating the apple, they open the Pandora box, Adam and eve grew wisdom, they know what is shame, they know that they are naked... They gain the knowledge of lust, greed, gluttony, wrath, sloth, pride and envy... And thus evil is born....

And it is also because of knowledge, we know all this is evil, and those who had consciouses will try to prevent and stop themselves from committing sins...

Therefore i got a conclusion, that wisdom and knowledge is just like a double edge sword...
can be use for the good or for the bad ...

So is that the case that human are born evil, and they use knowledge for the bad..
or is that the case that human are born good, and it is knowledge and wisdom that corrupt their mind ...

if a baby or a kid who knows nothing, completely innocent, kills maybe a cat or a dog, but he don't know it is right or wrong, but just fun to himself, he would just laugh and walk away.
IS he in the wrong, is he evil... it is us with the wisdom/knowledge that judge it, and feel that it is completely sick...
but to the kid, it is not wrong...

chicken and egg? hmm or there is really an answer ..
guess this will be my first question that i will ask god when i go heaven lol!!!

just too many things is happening in my mind now ...
hmm lots of stuff... many things.... hahah wisdom and knowledge..
other then this, my career is moving well..
i am taking over most of HOD work.. i even too over her seat physically.. lol!

long way to go, tired but i am excited to explore what good things that lies ahead of me in the future hehe..

back to work

2010-01-12T07:31:00.001-08:00

It had been a really busy week... i still dont have the time to write about my taiwan trip..
The photos that i post on facebook should explain abit haha...

Tired... so much to do, and yet i am happy to go work...

i will try to write something about taiwan when i got the energy.. hahha

I am back!

2010-01-03T20:14:00.000-08:00

I am back from my painful and tiring, yet enjoyable 17days of reservice and my taiwan trip!

thinking back i wonder... nothing is impossible lol!

IT will take sometime for me to write my whole experience.
There will be alot photos too hehe

Hamster nursery offically open

2009-12-10T22:04:00.000-08:00

last night after dinner with my friend, i went over to her house to take her hamster.

She going back to hongkong for the next 1month, so i offer myself to help.
Hahah this is the 2nd batch of hamster i am taking care of.

OK it is not easy LOL
I personally experience the power of male hamster!

What happen last night was.. i was playing with BB my friend hamster..
love him so much ! so fat so soft so much meat.
he is less active comparing to hachi. and he will just sleep on your hand..
Totally melted at this sight...!

so after i had enough of BB i place him back in his tank, and went over to meet hachi.
when i go over and try to pick him up, he smell my hand and then madness!!!

He bite my hand and started to go crazy!...
i flick his nose as a warning, and this make it worst!
he start attack my hand !! my god !!! mad hamster on the lose!!!

i use the toilet roll as a shield, omg i am like fighting a mini dragon!
i gave up and let go of the toilet roll as i see him show his fury on the toilet roll.
Quite piss off at him... very violent nature. i flick him a few time which end up pissing him off more and myself... i walk away and look at bb..

i try to pet him, and guess what.... now my hand has hachi scent..
i think i saw it in slow motion BB plunge his fangs into my finger..
I thought it was just a nibble, funny thing is that it start to get really painful lol...

holding my wounded finger i walk away with a lesson..
NEVER mess with 2 male hamsters ! they kill they destroy....!

over on sunday, i had a big operation of cleaning BB, hachi and the 2 small robo.
Wooo took me quite a while.. WAS very tired ... sleep the whole sunday after that... more story of what happen in a while lol!!

2012!

2009-12-06T18:45:00.000-08:00

End of world!!! WHAHAHA

Recently i had been reading the "today" paper on my way to work.

I realize the world is very concern about current global climate problem.
Finally it takes so many hundreds and thousands of years before everyone is scare of the end of world. And finally human realize how much of a parasitic human nature is.

So there is some sort of survey done:

how teens help to save the Earth:
Recycle 42%
save water 29%
walk instead of being driven around 13%
plant trees 10%

issues they are most concerned about
ozone layer reduction 21%
air pollution 13%
Climate change 13%
animal extinction 11%
Floods 9%
deforestation 6%

I THOUGHT TREES ARE IMPORTANT!!!
and wth to animal extinction! lol... Man have little compassionate heart to other species, this including trees...

Little that people know trees are the most important!!!

What the main thing that is causing global warming? The excess carbon dioxide in the air. And why is there so much carbon dioxide?
1.) Too much burning!!! oil, industries ... burning of trees by some dumb country..
2.) there is not enough, or the trees are not fast enough to convert all this carbon dioxide to oxygen..

SO trees are the long term method to clear current global climate problem.. ERM guess not much people pay attention to their science class during their secondary school..

pls be environmental, this is the world which we live it.
if everyone do their part, the world will be beautiful.

Random

2009-12-06T17:50:00.000-08:00

I feel that i am really a very random person..

i not a expert in the command of speech, but i love to talk a lot. if you trigger the topic i like i can spill out ton of stuff.. of randomness lol!!

i believe most of my friend would experience my randomness all the time..
i could be discussing somethings at a moment and next i will be asking a totally irrelevant question.

I have too much thoughts at very single moment .. WAHAHAH.. does it have to do with my gemini character?
I love knowledge.. i have a thirst for knowledge, i want to learning all sort of weird stuff in life..
That is why i am very keen to watch National Geography Channel.. Cause life itself is amazing.. every things around, even the smallest of how life is form is damm interesting. So sometime in my own randomness time i make read up such stuff. Call me random or call me flicker-minded, it is just a line difference lol..

Recently i found someone who is as weird as me.. or i could say share such randomness like me
I dont normally share my crazy thoughts, theory, believe or what ever you call it with my friends and others. Cause normally they wouldn't be interested, and would just get bored by it lol.

If you realize that normally human is more self centered, they are only concern about things around them and things that benefit them. (randomness again)

I didn't expect this person to also believe in Gaia theory also! Guess that what nature freak like us will believe lol.. interesting interesting, out of all those randomness, there is a small coincidence in life..

I read the newspaper 2day and realize that scientist discover that carbon dioxide is the main cause of global warming, countries around the world is trying their best to cut down carbon dioxide emission by 2% every year.. Great new to our descendence .. LIKE if most of us would care!!!! LOL.. i am saying most ho not everyone lol! trying hard not to judge .. hiaz..

Everyone would have the mindset of, "ah end of world, i will never live to see it!" or "end of world never thought of it, i am too busy with my own stuff to think of some other things".
Shit i am judging again lol..

save the earth, you damm parasitic human beings.. lol!!! i want to be white blood cell lol!!!!
Hmm maybe osama is a believer of Gaia theory also LOL he is the biggest white blood cell whahah!

Think i am getting old

2009-12-03T00:06:00.000-08:00

Over the past few days, i realize my perception to many things in my life had change a lot..

I went out for dinner with one of my friends on Tuesday night, we really had a good time.
Ha ha it has been a long time that i had dinner at east coast, being over excited, i over order food..

In the end both of us couldn't finish the food, hmm i realize she doesn't eat that much not like someone else i know of lol! As usual i don't eat much also lol!

After dinner we have a nice stroll alone the beach of east coast... trying to digest the huge amount of food we had..

After which we go BFD!!!!! (Big XXXXXXX XXXX) for a small drinking session.
We talk many stuff many interesting stuff..

I realize my concept and view in many things had change... I feel those stuff that i did in the past was childish and dumb, BUT it is fun .. that is the meaning of young and crazy..

I told her that the most crazy thing i did is that i play "Hai Dai" in the middle of the night in the streets of Australia HAHA..

Little that she know that, when i go BBQ in east coast or paris, we a bunch of guy and girls all would hide in the woman toilet in the night when it rains..

Lots of silly, crazy fun still i did.. HAHA silly but good memories... lol!
i getting old !!!!!

hiaz... dont...

2009-12-02T19:47:00.000-08:00

I agree that education doesn't make someone clever, or even successful in life..
It is just a platform, or a base to help someone to grew their wisdom and become successful..
There are many people out there who don't have any education but is earning more then those who have load of education.... I KNOW THAT! SEEING IT EVERYDAY NOW!

someone post something on facebook..

that someone friend start commenting on it, because it is quite offending for their career, they become quite angry and start saying some bad stuff ...
then that someone friend start making a big deal out of it on facebook..

then more and more throw in comment...

This make them look bad.. makes them looks stupid is small hearted..

Makes what others comment about them, more truthful more accurate...

therefore i always say dont judge people even if others judge you...
Stay with a big heart and people will respect you at what ever you do...
Start having a small heart and complain or judge, you look petty and dumb lol...

commented..

2009-11-29T19:39:00.000-08:00

over the weekend, sab told me something that i should be happy or maybe sad .. LOL

She told me that GI said that i dress much better then the first time she saw me in service..
She commented that i dress VERY BUANG when i come service last time.
I was like laughing so badly... cause service is alwaysafter my chionging on sat night..
i would be in a very bad and blur state, cause normally i only had like 2hours of sleep that night lol!.
Also she told me that when she first saw my ex, she wonder how come someone like me
would be able to be with her.. lol

I believe most of my friends out there know that i dont really care about my appearance .

The first time GI saw me in zouk she had that who is this face when i said hi to her. I wasnt on my spec, and i am wearing a jeans and a polo t, i wasnt on my normal bermudas and tshit lol!

Guess i got too comfortable and start forgetting that "god require golden outfit, and human require a gd outfit" this common knowledge lol..

Ah i just only slack going to church ma.. lol

At least sab give a nice comment, she said "after buying skinny jeans , can see y i got my ex"
I WAS Laughing like mad, cause recently i have been attracting the wrong crowd..
GAYs and GAYS and gays...
LOL my ex is a very manly person maybe thats why... deep inside she is just a gay lol!!!!
And my ex-walton collegue commented that i shouldnt give that "Ying Dang" look all the time.. They say gays like it... i am like "i have smalls eyes la .." i shouldnt smile too much, i should look fierce woth big big eyes staring at everyone it is much better lol..

O nice reminder, that even that i am very comfortable to a place or a person, i should never slack on my appearance lol...

HAHA friends are so gd to have around... dumb dumb me ..

Angry!

2009-11-27T06:31:00.000-08:00

Angry!!! angry.....
These few days, all i see is bad drivers. Crazy drivers, slow drivers...

Hiaz refer to my first post you will see my anger... lol!
there is this dumb guy who drive like 80km on the first lane hogging the road. When i highlighted him he still continue with his dumb speed hogging the road...
My father said just over take tat guy... After i over take, that guy start flashing light on me with his pathetic speed., just in a few sec i could even see him in my rear mirror.
Seriously that is way too pathetic.....
Or maybe god is telling me to slow down again.. haha

happy.. moving closer to my dreams..

2009-11-24T06:19:00.000-08:00

2day is the first day that i truly start taking over some of the work in phillip...

ONE WORD tired....
it was a damm busy day...
picking up call to confirm trade..
confirm lending and borrowing..

click big number with my hand trembling...
looking at impossible numbers....

learning from all the senior ...

SBL really need to hands on then i know how come people keep telling me i am in a shit hole lol...

even thought my work is within the trading house of 830 to 530...
it is a crazy of unlimited work to do .. HAHAH scary.... maybe programming is more fun lol

But it is wat i really want to do... moving to the finanical world..
it is so beautiful... money is so beautiful lol...

during lunch time, i start digging infomation from my senoir colleague..
On how is phillip, and how come they work there for like 10 over years some even 20 plus years...
Some really interesting information i digged out !!!!...
I ask one of the senior SBL colleague why is she doing dealing now...
This colleague is not a simple dealer... she handle big, i say big client.. the number is way too way too ... due to my limited vocab.. i cannot find a word for it lol!!!

She told me "aiyo it is common for people to move out of SBL la.., alot of the prop trader and dealer in the company can from SBL.........!! and once they gd at trading they will ask to become a reminser..!!"
I AM LIKE WTH>>>>>>>>>>> ISNT THIS WAT I WANT >>>>>>>

sometime i really feel my life is like a exciting story... been thru hell, see heaven, then see hell again.. now heaven...
WA KAO ... but i believe the heaven i am seeing now will be there forever for me..

every gd little things is falling into place... MY SECRET...
my laws of attraction....
why the hell i didnt kno this earlier...
but if i know earlier i may not be ready for all this... life is somehow.. interesting.. and amazing.. tiring sometimes la lol!

i know i still got alot to learn and a long way to go,
feel so small but the possibility of growing is aLOT more ...
VEry excited in everything..... but i need to take step by step.. even it seem that the pace around me is speeding lol...

Happiness comes to you if you believe in it..
Success comes to you if you believe in it..

simple but meaningful

2009-11-24T06:03:00.000-08:00

somethings some words in life are just plain old simple...

life could be simple...

happiness could be just having a small bread when u are really hungry..
happiness could be just like coming home after a tired day, and see ur hamster do some really cute stuff
happiness could be just lieing on ur bed and writing ur blog....

after a tired day of work i saw my dear hamster hachi did something tat is way too cute.
i clean up his tank, and as usual once i did tat he will be really excited going into his toliet/house...
he would roll on the sand and clean himself... way too cute...
but this time he did something more funny..
one of my friend msg me a pic of her cute hamster lieing on his back sleeping..
looking at how cute it is, i turn and look at hachi.
As usual he is cleaning himself on the sand rolling.. then he suddenly pick up one of his foot with his 2 hand, and start chewing on it.
WAHAHAH naturally he just lost his balance and fall on his back.. !!! argh i wanted to take a photo... but once the camera is out he stop doing it.. crap...

HAHA..
over my service last weekend i was reminded on something tat is so simple that i almost forgot about it..
About how to become successful in life... the method is so so simple...
Simply by building ur core strength...
Example....

someone will not get sick easily if he/she exercise everyday, eat healthy, have enough rest.
You will up ur core strength of health..

someone will be able to get gd result in exam if he/she study everyday, work hard and build on his/her core strength of wisdom.

i dont kno if anyone out there notice..
successful people are usually more hardworking then others, more humble then others...
over years of building their core, and not complain they become successfull..

i do agree there are some people that are successful and not hardworking and humble... but does their success stay long ?
usually it doesnt.....

simple thing like doing ur daily work, being hardwork and humble, serving others...
how many people out there can do it... how many.....

back to my exercise regime

2009-11-19T17:01:00.000-08:00

gaining weight and losing my muscle...
i decided to start my exercise regime..

last night after work i meet cy for a run in bedok reservior...

It will be a ard 5km run.. after 4km i flaten... cy pace is way too much for me...
plus i was talking way too much while i run...

at the 4km mark i tried to sprint and i almost falling ... leg to weak LOL

Need alot more training...

guess i will be joining a gym soon ..

back to the corprate world (dreams part 2)

2009-11-17T04:18:00.001-08:00

1 week plus has pass, time seem moving real fast..

Time really doesnt wait... It is coming to the end of 2009... the worst and the best and the biggest change year of my life....
It felt so long and yet so short...

I rmb a few weeks ago xx was comment that it felt so long for this year...
Maybe just this year it self he had been seeing me as much as he had for the past 3 years lol..

I was deeply touch for the past few weeks regarding the sermon on dreams...

I would dare to say i am a big dreamer... I believe lots of my friends would say the same ..
I always been dreaming about getting the best job earning big bucks..
Being a broker or trader.... semi retire at the age of 35..
And start my own cafe... LOL
They keep asking me you sure you can become or not ...

Dreams who dont have it... i believe everyone else out there will have a dream of their own..

Wanted to be rich, Live in a big big house, drive big big car...
Maybe someone else who have the dream of having someone to love ...
someone who love him/her alot...

Big big dreams like earn 10 billion and use it to buy a island then only let rich people to go to tat island to stay... (a dream of someone that i once know WAHAHHA)

Mine is pretty simple.. i may had say about this a million time..
Earn alot, semi retire at age 35 and own my own cafe... become multi-nation brand..
Live in a big big white bungalow, drive my SLK...
ERM woman... hmm lol!!

I DARE EACH OF u out there to state ur dream... DO you ever believe you can do it ..?

I know i can it is just a matter of time...

How many people out there willing to step out of their comfort zone and walk on the path of their dreamz?

One person i really respect is sabrina... even thought she always tease me, she is one of the woman that i respected the most..
Fighting for her own dream... doing the impossible...

Some may say their dream is impossible to achieve... i would just say they are cowards and YES BIG BIG COWARDS.
Even impossible is always saying "i m possible" (copyright from christina LOL)

I wouldnt want to split out all the godly message tat i believe in here...
But i would just like to encourage many people out there..
I did and have done it, encouraging someone to achieve her childhood dreams..
And now she is living it... she may not rmb or feel anything but
somehow i am very happy for her lol...

Whatever is stopping you to achieve your dream is urself and time....
Life is not like you ask for something and something will come to you...
only thing that you get thru hard work you will cherish it..

There are 4 reason why there is a delay in your dreams................
1.) There could be some other things that you have to do first...
(example suffer and rot, then you will awake and know what to do and start working hard towards it)

Ah i dont want to use god ... damm
2.) God is giving you the time to get yourself ready for the responsibility that your dreams carry.
(for example, maybe you want to be some big fuck CEO, if you are not mature and not responsible enough, how are you going to manage ur employee how are you going to take the responsibility of thousand of employee lifes..)

3.) Lazy people want much but get little, but hardworking people get wat he want.. eventually lol.... Passion in wat you do is very important..
so i still believe you must do wat you love in order to be successful...

4.) time is required for you to deal with you own problem, your own weakness... without clearing you own weakness you never become successful..

I myself is a very gd example..
even i had gone thru alot this year, but i know it is not enough for me..
I need more time to strengthen myself..
2years time i will go to the front desk (even i am counted as in the front desk now) and fight for my dream...

take note of the gd and throw away all the bad LOL
sorry if i offended anyone lol!!!

Mango cheese cake for sale lol

2009-11-10T07:57:00.000-08:00

and yes beautiful cheese cake and the most delicious one hehe

Most scary monster

2009-11-10T07:38:00.000-08:00

Monster, devil...
Big huge dangerous man holding a gun...

Can they hurt you?
Ha, what can they do ? at most hurt you physically, kill you?

Somehow i suddenly got a thought tat, nothing can hurt you as much as the one you love the most hurt you.. Betrayal!!?

I was quite disappointed with my bro sticking his soul into his world again..
last time i tried to get in his world by join his gaming world, and tried to understand him.
i thought i can drag him back, but now he is going back again...

I feel that i had let him down as a brother... forget about him for the last 2years..
i thought that he had grow up, or simply i was selfish, i only care about myself...
on way or the other i lost my soul too, punishment .........

why should i hold on to something in the past that hurt me and not move on .......

I trying to save everything around me... luckily my friends are back with me ...
Career is picking up... i going towards my dream... currently in phillips and working in the trading room.. DREAM close lol.. Everything will fall into my planning .. gogogo !

35 i will open my own cafe... and be a fund manager...

Still there is alot of work and alot more to do... hiaz i really hope i could get back wat i had last time ...

There is still one dark dark area in my life, tat made me so difficult to trust again..
trust love? ... or believe tat there is true love again...
i wonder why i am coming back to this thought again...
maybe the pain in me had never left..
maybe i just hid the pain...
or maybe i am really just a silly man....

i am still praying to let myself walk out of this, believe tat love is something that could happen again..

Never let down the person that love you the most!...

traveling..

2009-11-05T22:27:00.000-08:00

I suddenly feel like writing.... like always i have alot of messy thoughts in me ...

Ytd was a fun day of traveling...
In the mid morning, i drove to novena to meet this cute nice friend of mine who want to give me bathing sand for my dear hamster hachi.. I think she got this gift which her hamster doesnt really use..
I really wanted to get some stuff for her hamster, BB too hmm i will think of something.

It was pouring really heavily, which mess up my plans of going to Mad Jack.. This really nice aus fish and chip eatery .. We decided to go somewhere dry, CCK lol..... Cause i suddenly got this craving to eat pepper lunch.. hehe Had a really nice lunch, then we went walking ard in cck and start looking in the pet shop..

I think she is ps to look at gers stuff.. Little to her knowledge, looking at gers stuff is too normal to me LOL.... name it and i know it LOL

After sending her home, i went in search for my RED MAN.... I thought there is only 1 red man in jurong.. i was too used of going there LOL..
Announcement, jurong red man is gone...
After checking the website, then i reliaze that there is a Red Man branch in Bedok all this while LOL... dumb dumb me..

After my failed search of red man, i took a trip to kaki buki to deal with one of the small errand for my mom... then finally i got home... LONG day of traveling..

In the even jasper asked me to join him for dinner... HE keep asking me to go toa payoh..
I was damm piss cause of the full day of traveling ..
Told him off, feel really bad i am sorry...

In the end met him and cy at east coast.. hmm memories LOL

Dreams part 1

2009-11-01T05:44:00.000-08:00

Finally after so much struggle, i decided to continue my path... thru the bank path... LOL
Fight for the dream of being a broker/trader...

Why do i wanted to do tat? And why broker/trader?
Why not banker ?

Seriously i sometimes i really dont understand what i really want..
But i know in the end what i wanted...
Open my own cafe.. have a business of my own..
Be one of the best trader ard...

Hmm maybe i always know what i want it is just tat i didnt see it lol..

I feel tat Walton is just a journey that i had to go thru to build up certain skills that i am lacking of..
I really feel very thankful for all the people in there that had teaches me all the stuff...
Even it is just a short period of time, but the amount of knowledge that i gain from there will help me alot in the future..

Now i had make all the plans of how to achieve the dream that i have..
decided to focus on my career now ..... haha shouldnt let other things distract me...WAHAH

Now i am looking forward to the trip to taiwan next month.. and joining JPmorgan next year HEHE happy...

It was due to the weekend service and something happen in the office that make my decision firmer..
I was going crazy and weeping like hell during the service, like wat i normally tell sab and fu, holy spirit LOL...
This was the 2nd time that i feel so affect, or so blessed..
Normally i pray and pray, and during weekend service, god would give me the answer to my question..
But this time i had been praying for weeks, and i wasnt getting anywhere...
Holding my faith strongly, after 3weeks, this service answer everything...
God want me to go serve LOL...
Thats y i am weeping, cause the promise i had with HIM is in 10-15 years time, i will achieve what i want, and i will act as a testimonial, finally owning my own business and serving in the ministry just like our pastor....
Pls just give me the time... but is it wat i want or wat he want for me is more important..
Sometime i feel that being a blind idiot is really better LOL...
Having knowledge is really a sin LOL.... And yet human is always seeking for it..

Hmm tired .. so many thing running in my mind ...

picking my pots and pans again..

2009-10-30T06:35:00.000-07:00

the guys would be super happy tat i am starting to pick up my pots and pans LOL

ya and yes i am back to doing cooking and baking.. one of my favourite and the most less destructive and dangerous hobby..

Other then my weekly soccer, i love wind surfing (dont get to do much now, no surfing buddy) and tennis(LOVE no buddy now also... my kar loc ...)..
Finally drink and drive LOL...

will be doing lots of baking in the future ba.. i really wanted to start my own cafe in the future..
A few guinea pig tasted my cheese cake, and the response is gd really gd lol...
Like i dont kno my cheese cake is gd..
But i always believe that how the food taste like will be depending on the chief mood..

But hahah this cheese cake of mine had alot of incident and weirdly it turn out not bad.. only like 60% of what i made last time...

first when i wanted to bake, the blender spoilt... i use manual, the human blender to deal with the cake mix..
And when i wanted to open the egg.... one of them drop... how clumsy of me ... LOL
End up the cake is mix using my ox strength (cream cheese is frozen hard) with one egg less..

Basically everything is done using my memory of what i did last time, so WAHAH i didnt rmb the baking time.. i use 60min instead of 90min LOL!!...

This morning i wanted to test the cake and the inside is all soft LOL....
re bake for a while and wala everything turn out ok LOL

so any guinea pig got diarrhea or anything not mine fault ho..
i very clean in cooking one!!!
WAHAHHA ok party time soon wa la!!

The sun is shining bright

2009-10-27T22:15:00.001-07:00

I am going to see rainbows soon..
After this long long sad rain in my life....

JPMorgan is offering me a offer that no one would reject with my current status..
Hahaha soon i will be joining back to the company that i love so much..

Guess still it would be better to join a MNC then a local firm.. plus the job scope over there require less of techincal skills... or you could say what ever i had already...

Lost my lucky star, but i get a better one back!! WAHAHAHA!
My lucky star, lol HAchi? hmm lol !!! or it could be someone else or something ? lol

The feeling of selling as hot as hotcake feel the best.. ah finally i get back this feeling...

I know this is still the start of my path.. hmm ah tired lol!!!!! but still a long long way to go..
Alots of gd stuff happening ahhaha so exciting..

After 24years of living in bedok, staying near the market with alot of noise and 2nd floor with thousand of cockroach climbing up the rubbish bin.. finally, my family is planning to move soon.

My parent is planning their retirement, so in 2-3 years they should be retired ba.. 55years retired siao parent... i scare that they will have "老人痴呆"....
Anyway we are planning to buy a beautiful house, it is big enough for catching..
Look similar to the dream house that i visualize.. lol

Seems like everything is falling in place... 2more month to endure.. and settle all my stuff...
everything will be gd soon WAHAHHAAHAHA !!!!

As if thing is not gd enough WAHAHAAAAA.... Feel that my ambition is coming back and direction getting clear..

abit sian that i need to go back the corporate ladder, but if things goes well.. whahha whahah damm so much things to achieve and so little time LOL

Believe and work towards it, AND you will get what you want... soon my life will be a testimonial that will impact people..

Maybe like what Lilian casually said during one of our bible study, i may really become a pastor in the future WAHHAAAAAHHAAHAHA !!! SHOCKING !!!

JOB JOB JOB

2009-10-25T04:33:00.000-07:00

hiaz i dont know should i talk about this here..
Not much people read so i guess it should be fine .. WAHAH

I got another offer from Philips security..
The job role is like a business analyst for their new FX platform!.
omg i will be one of the pioneer for one of the biggest thing happening in Philips...

But what about Walton... the place where my passion started to grow...
Hiaz this sucks..

Furthermore, irene from jpmorgan, my ex colleague call me up and offer me a job at jpmorgan!!

my god... when u want it doesn't come, but when u don't want it keep coming...

it will be perfect to be able to work in one of the largest brokage firm and do walton at the same time..
life is never perfect LOL...

things will come to a end soon! lol

New pet in the house

2009-10-18T21:26:00.000-07:00

i had totally forgotten to enter a entry in my blog lol!...

Lets talk about my new pet, HACHIRU..
i chooses this name because first, it is a female hamster, 2nd because it is cute..
This reminded me of my brother/me first character in world of warcraft,
oh i am way too otaku lol.

And yes she is sitting on her butt..

she is damm cute and i had been training it alot WAHAHA!!

hachi and variel lol!!

many more photo and video in my facebook go visit ba!! WAHHA

Sad world or made to be sad.. But is it really sad?

2009-09-28T09:53:00.000-07:00

i suddenly got alot of inspiration to write 2day..

I know that this world is a sad world.. Many people are hurt and destroy, as you grow up the more pain you receive... People dont believe in love, and they think that everything comes with a price... The more hurt you get the more defensive you get. Either you take it positively and become better and never hurt another person, or you take it negativity and become someone selfish bastard, who rather hurt others first then you yourself..

IS the society evil and corrupted, or it is the people who made it this way.. HIAZ chicken and egg thing...

If it is the people who made society, why cant it be made good, happy and hopeful...
I believe out there, there is still alot of nice and good people.. Who believe in true love, who believe in selfless giving..

Sad to say so i am not those nice good people... But i am working towards it..
I always wanted recognition for the good things i did.. i want something in return after i did something good.
And if i dont get it i get piss off.. And yes i admit, I am such an asshole.... BUT i believe many would agree with me most people are like tat...A selfless giving is never easy.....

I was giving motivation talk to one of my friends.. Really sad to find out that she was so similar to who i was when i was younger... NOT A GD THING TO BE ME..
When i was young, my mom will describe me as a very grey person.. I always tell my mom there is no meaning in living, all human is just waiting for their death.. And every time i would tell my mom i want to die lol... But before i do that, i wanna earn alot of money, and start bombing the whole world killing all the evil people around... Apparently someone beat me into bombing lol!!!!
Shit will i get catch if i say thing hmm.. i hope not ... lol...
I was someone who has no hope no faith.. Condemn by everyone in my life.. I wasnt a gd student, and not really that kind of good kids lol...
I keep saying that i was a half Christan, cause i believe in god, but i hate wat he is doing to me and i dont like church itself..

CAN YOU BELIEVE how much i change damm it lol...

Life is interesting many thing happen in my life, changes me, making me to be a better person.. i know i still got a long way to go but i am working hard..
I will keep my faith in goodness in life WAHHAHA...

Abit lost what i am writing again..
Anyway there are many examples of selfless love.. For example, a mother carrying a child for 9month and giving birth.. Even as a man i know, IT is not a easy task being a woman.
My love .. opps i dont think so lol...
Wat else damm lol... Aiyo alot la just have faith lol!

In conclusion, let what is bad happen around you, to make you a better person..
Believe there is love in this world, doesnt mean a fail relationship or a bad break up means the whole world there is no love... There will always be one person made for you. as long as you hold on to tat faith you will find tat person..

DAmm am i so positive now.. wat crap lol! THIs is the positive side of me writing.. negative side it too tired after negativity of 27 years!!!! but seriously even thought i not really ready prepare to another relationship..
i really do believe the one will come.. and my "TRUE" love will appear.. And whatever i am going through is making me a better person for tat person..
Kao!!! you are one damm lucky person that person who ever you are lol..

Nothing is true unless it is truly tested!

2009-09-20T07:44:00.000-07:00

How should i start this....
i had been thinking of whether to write about my own testimonial for the last few months.
Haha i am scare that my buddies will think i "siao" christainality.. Even thought some of them oready know i am very "siao"..

Hmm i really forgot what i write about myself in the last few post, by repeating it will sound rather naggy lol! even thought as a sales person i must be abit naggy.. just like my manager DARREN...

DARREN i not scare you read my blog... DAMM YOU wahahhahahhaa....
Never ever motivate me, only know how to splash water on me...
KAO I never need you, split out your rideover on me as the team play time funds!

I think i am having alot of balls by writing this... WAHHAHA

oo ya i must remember the theme 2day!... nothing is true unless it is truly tested!
i think i should start talking about this before i start the 2nd topic...

I believe i did mention that many amazing stuff happen in my church.. What GOD present had satisfy all my need in my life...
Each time i faces some problem in life, or feeling down, as soon as it is Sunday, i go church, i will get my answer to those problems..
What is interesting is tat every time the pastor will be talking about thing that will help me to resolve my problems.. Chance? or maybe everyone faces same problem all the time?

Due to the importance of listening in my job, i believe my listening skill had improve...
Crap i am having random thoughts again!..
okok back to wat i am going to talk about...

Many will be wondering how come in life there is always obstacle and bumps..
Nothing is easy nothing is always as smooth.
Why is it so?
I believe in life nothing should be easy! Cause you never treasure things/people that is easy to get/treat you well..
Only when you make a effort and get it then you will treasure it.
Only when you are tested then you TRULY treasure it...
Life is JIAN, human is JIAN...
I believe most people will agree with me

For example, love is never true never real unless it had been tested and survive through it.
And only through all the hardship then, people will treasure it... Unless eventually you will take for granted and eventually lose it ...
VERY true very true1!!! lol..
Even in items, money! People would only treasure only after they know how hard it is to get it.

Because of this, life itself is always difficult unless you know how to treasure and appreciate things around you.
But normally people doesnt... IT IS True very very true lol...

So guys out there, everyday of you life maybe a challenge, it may be hard at time.. Take it as a training.. take it as a modeling of your character...
Every bad experience comes with a better person ...

But i dont mean just by taking hard times you will eventually become a better person. IT IS very important to learn from all this bad experience... first you must acknowledge then change, and eventually you will become better ...

HAaha i just wanted to share my experience, hoping tat it will motivate some of the people around me that currently faces some problem in their lives..

One of the most happy things tat i encounter last week was someone told me tat i look happy now...
DX one of my bestest of bestest girl friend, called me and said that i sound much much happy comparing to last time.. I am really happy that my change are obvious..

Life is really good once you start noticing things around you whahaha!... I really wanted to say some crazy Christan stuff but, i dont want to turn people off lol!
Just remember everyone of you out there every good things will happen to you if you believe.. Sometimes bad things happen to wake you up, to make you treasure things around you, Take it positively and everything will become better.. Positive attract positive!! lol..

werid dream

2009-09-16T23:27:00.000-07:00

I am back to who i was better then before, but something stuck me and i know it wasnt the same.. i wasnt that happy at time.. memories and emotional stuff affect me again..
I think it is that time of the month for me again! lol....

I got a very werid dream which i still remember after a few days.
I was in a hair salon, some really high class hair salon. I remember some big shot hair dresser was helping me to cut hair. She have a male name, which i dont really remember, then she got some really long hair and wear a big big spec!...
Weirest thing is tat she is a china ger.......... then she dye my hair gold!!! WERID WERID...

i admit i am thinking of highlighting my hair hmm, i rmb tat my dyed hair make me look older.

Over the weekends i also had a gathering with my poly mates..
Really happy since we had not met for 6 years plus.
Everyone changes but only Yangyi seems to look the same.

I was happy that we got to meet up and update each other regarding our lives after poly...
Ah poly was fun!! so free and careless..
TAt meng eat lesser la your neck is almost gone! lol

Diao xue change alot too, maybe because she is wearing contacts...
Hahah really happy that i got a gd comment regarding my contacts too by the gers...
maybe i was really buang at poly LOL....
They keep saying that i slim down alot, hmm i dont remember that i was tat fat in poly..

Any DX share her story and experience for the pass 6 years. Make me realise, what i am going through is ok... i am feeling that i am like walking her path, since i am also thinking of open my own F&B.. lol

A life is not truly a life until you have experience everything

FEAR?

2009-09-09T09:15:00.000-07:00

last night, i dream of something that isnt scary, but turn out to be scary to me...
You all must be wondering what the hell i am talking about again, must be my bad English again. Wahahaha

What the dream is about is that i dream of a woman. I dream that i got together with someone a female which is very familiar to me. WHO ... lol only my dear buddy ky would know ba..

I remember clearly that i walk with that person one some road.. And i got really scare.. very scare.. the shock wake me up...

HAHAaa, maybe i am fearful of relationship now... so fearful that something tat look happy and sweet, look really scary to me that i got a shock that would wake me up...

Anyway ... i am happy 2day i manage to close.. i did a very emotional close..
Maybe i should thanks the guys for the chance to train to present to a group of people.. I did a mini seminar to my group of friends last week, which took all my energy and almost killed me.. I didnt know that it was so difficult to do a seminar. And the things that i learn in walton really help me alot!

I didnt do my best, but i was so happy that i manage to convince them (YES i am doing mini seminar to a family ..) that what i have over here is really good and can help them in a long run!!
The mom of Small S even said that gary should join me and learn something from me..
I AM SO touch and feel that what i am doing is really meaningful, and life changing to me wahahha...

AND YES GOD IS PLAYING WITH ME AGAIN...
Some company call me up for a offer for a job again... DAmm when i was feeling so happy in walton this happen again... I still considering alot since i got alot of stuff i wanted to achieve now. All my dream, my career dreams have came back to me, and lots of fighting spirit is building on in me...
Joining a company will restrict me path to my big big dreams.
I would be just someone trying to climb the corporate ladder.. And finially truly become KY lol... Become stable and boring, and die eventually lol...

HAHA life is really about choices, now my one move is going to decided my future!
OMG DEAR GOD AH dont keep testing me la... tired i wanna sleep to reduce the formation of my dark eye.

CURSING>>!!!

God is playing with me

2009-08-29T02:54:00.001-07:00

i was so reluctant to write again because my post was accidentally deleted, and i got to rewrite everything again..

After my last post regarding a lost friend.. many things happen..

Lets talk about my work.
I am still trying hard very hard to throw myself into this business itself..
This month i did 5 presentation, and many aeroplane.. but no result yet... this business is tough.
But tough things dont last, but tough people does...

Is god testing (playing) with me?
After waiting for the pass 2 months OCBC finally call me up for the Graduate program.
WTH after i decided to commit myself in walton and then OCBC call me.
What makes it worst is that i got through everything and they make a offer to me...

I am stuck between a stable life in bank, or a crazy and not stable life in walton.
I am really a high risk taker, play forex, do sales.. i think i am crazy.

But as usual, as crazy as i am, as much as i wanted to fly i decided to reject that offer...
I believe anyone who see this is calling me crazy.
But i am really happy that some of my buddies actually support me, cause they saw changes in me as i worked in Walton.

I need to focus more ! work harder! .... fight fight fight.. Anyway i really want to thanks the angels whom are helping me in one way or the other THANKS>..

And yes stop spreading any rumour regarding me... I am anti sexual now!, self center now!
i only love myself now! no one else.. But i cannot stop others from loving me lol! (example: Marcus) wahahahaha

IS god playing with me!!!!
Sometime i really feel that god dont get bored of playing/testing me in life... Challenges, obstacles, chance, fate... Kao i old man liao la really tired....
Damm only ky know... kao too tired cannot think....

Sleeping !!!!!!! Love everyone out there!!!!!

Post specially delicated to Weijie

2009-08-09T10:20:00.000-07:00

I decided to write this entry, knowing it could be a mistake or a dumb thing to do. Hahhaa
What ever happen i believe i will always have "him" as a witness and judge..

I wish to address the recent accident happen between our dear friend weijie (honestly i am not very close to her).

I wish to apologize for XX for his stupid and childish behavior in deleting weijie in facebook... If he cannot bear to watch those photo, he could have just not log in facebook(which he seldom does it) ...
Why did xx did that stupid thing? Why ? I know deep inside him he still have some feeling for weijie, more of a close friend then love , he couldnt bear to watch weijie going to make the same mistake again as she usually does!.. lol

A boyfriend, husband or even a girlfriend, wife what is most important thing they must have? They first have to be able to be accept by your family, then your friends. Why do i say that ? Cause a relationship rarely work if they cannot be accept by the people close by you...
Problems and conflict will arise and eventually cause a hole in the love basket...

Will a good bf/gf bad mouth your friends? Will a good friend bad mouth you bf/gf?
IT really depends. First of all, who do you know better? Who will always think of your interest more? Sometime love really blinds everything around you...
I dont know the details la did the friend bad mouth or the bf bad mouth... So you all know it in your heart can le lol...

Boyfriend or girlfriend, even husband or wife, will LEAVE you but REALLY good friends will not... I learn it the hard way to realize this TRUTH.. DONT SAY it will not...
I even ask a very lovely couple friend i know, i say "if one day you meet someone very good very aspect better then your current bf/gf, and maybe there is some problem with your current one, what will happen ?"
TOO MUCH LIFE example that i see this happen... Human emotion and feeling is really unpredictable.... so hmm thats why i still love my friends more NOW lol...
If you throw away your good friend and if your the other half leave you, who do you go to.
Heng my friend never leave me, i realize that i am so blessed sometime lol...

Weijie just to remind you that as a Christan, you should not have sex before marriage, or even masturbate. SO lets just see..
I really dont even know why are we so concern about someone who treat friends like shit. SHE believe in someone who she just got to know in a few months time lol, rather then someone who she know for years and show her care and concern all the time!!!.....

Those who use the name of the lord to do evil shall rot in hell for eternity.....MARK MY WORDS!!!

Because of you ! I am who i am ! lol

2009-08-04T22:15:00.000-07:00

It has been almost a month since my last post.
I was too lazy and i was too busy with my work.
Since one of my stalkers asks me to write something, i decided to spend sometime over here ba lol...

Whenever I thought of the past, so many things just float into my mind...
I smile and keep laughing!!! i wonder, why i am so unhappy for the last 20 odd years
I really feel happy and blessed that all the people that have appeared and change me...

So many things had happen for the past few week. I dont even know where should i start...

The first change that i made was that i got more committed in my work..
Being busier is the indication! lol...
My colleagues are a bunch of fun and interesting people...
i really enjoy working and learning from each of them.
Haha the funny thing is that my boss who is someone that isnt approachable...
He had been known as an unfriendly and foul temple person... (How come someone like tat be top sales!)
But since the Charlie angels join us, he seems to open up abit more...
I had be trigging him and stepping on his thin line of bursting into anger for several times..
HAHHA seriously very fun...! Die la i am going back to my sick character lol.. (I AM BORE!!!)

But i know deep inside my manager is really a nice person; he is just someone who dont know how to express himself.
He actually quite nice to me since he really dont CARE About me lol! Guess my "D" is too much for him to handle.
But really learning alot from him, learn how to talk in a more sensitive way, using the right choice of words would
make a comment sound really nice instead of offensive...!

For example if you want to call someone stupid! You can put it in another way by saying
"Only wise person would think of diversify their portfolio to the only hard asset like land itself"
Working to change myself and get out of my comfort zone, furthermore i need to change myself to listen more and stop being a hard head!

I think 2 weeks ago, DA s actually ask me to go St james on Wednesday because there is some event and as a member we get free entry.
Very coincident that, the Charlie angels in my office also had intention of going to ST james, so i just invited them!
Initially only 3-4 agree to join along, by the end of the day total 8 people wanted to go. Impressive thing is tat my car was able to squeeze in 8 people.. MY god 5 gers and 3 guys... that was crazy!!!!
More crazy things happen over at st james. I did practise some of the "GAME" technique and actually it works ! hmm i still very bad need alot more practice but YES the change i will do it .!!
Too much detail and ugly suff lol, in the end 2 people got drunk... AND YA i am stuck send drunk home again.. Lucky no one vomit in my car NOT LIKE SOME very huang very XX person lol (Just joking.. you kno i love you huang xx lol!!!!!)

My little baby car, erm(family car) got knock by someone...!
Very sian tat i had to get it repair, good thing is that i dont need to fork out anything since i WAS HIT ON THE BACK...
and that person admit his own fault..

I wanted to write something about weijie, BUT not on this post, i will personally delicate one post for her..
(this one i need to chui power!)

Everyday i am changing, moving out of my comfort zone, pushing myself to be a better person to touch and change people lives!
Being happy and love yourself is THE MOST IMPORTANT thing.

Because of you! i got to know god better!
Because of you, i finally know what is the true meaning of happiness !
And because of you, i will change!
HAha sound like the song in church lol!!!

Gay magnet

2009-07-12T10:07:00.001-07:00

As usual on friday i would go chill out at winebar with my buddies, but the day wasnt as usual.

I met up with gary and ky to have dinner at the same place that ky and me when on wed. And yes we went there to see that cute gal again lol.

i guess the story had spread to almost all my friends, so no point hiding the fact.
And yes i got approach by an ang mo in zouk asking to do some extra service.... yawnz
What happen that night in zouk....
I was having fun with my group over at phuther when KY suddenly went off to find his friend over at the member area in zouk...

I was having fun until the music started to get sucky.. Got really bored and i went over to find ky.

I walk over to zouk and waited for ky to come out to get me.
So there was this ang mo "GUY!", he came over and with a drunken voice he said "Can you help me?", a normal response would be "How can i?" Nothing wrong right?

He said "i need to pee", i responded back pointing at the direction of the toilet "Over there is the toilet"...
Then weird thing started to happen.. He repeated "Can you help me?", i was like "huh"..
If i didnt heard wrongly !!! he said "i need help with my pee pee..., any amount, i dont care the fuck about money, i can pay! .. can you help me!"

I was like what the hell, do i look gay to you.... I told him "Sry i am looking for my friend, go over the toilet there maybe someone will help you..."
He start talking lots of crap like "Why cant you help me!, 30dollar is it enough, i can give more, can you help me!" SMLJ 30dollar, i should cost much more then tat !

Lucky, ky saw it and came saving me.... Yawnz worst experience in my life getting approach by gay.. Ah gua, auntie nvm now gay............. kao!

At least being at the member areas, make me forget about this experience.... Got to see some celebrity hahaha... But the ger in there is way to high, i mean really high for short guys like me lol...

Bad experience, but at least i know i am attractive, even to the wrong sex.......

Old friends new friends

2009-07-11T02:02:00.001-07:00

This week is fun, and yet quit dissapointing...

There still isnt any news regarding my job in phillips, rather depressing. Maybe i really have to concertrate on my sales job. HAHAHAaa study so much, end up like tat lol..

On wed, ky and me met up for dinner, and we went to this interesting place.
The place is call ?? (ps forgot), it reside Albert Comples just beside sim lim tower.
Nice comfortable place with some light music, and as for the food quite ok above average..

Ky suggest we go there because of the cute waitress working over there. I got to know her too. Sweet young gal who study chemical enginneering in NUS... Chemical... yawnz ..
Funny thing is that she got almost same character as my EX lol.. maybe she is a Libra too lol...

On thursday i meet up with my poly firends and my dry sister (Gan mei mei). I am quite please that all my friends are doing well. Especially Rinato, someone who really change alot comparing to those times in poly.
It is almost 7-8 years after i had left my poly.. Time passes fast.. Haha sad thing is that i am still at square one hahaha...

Hope i can focus more on a direction ba..

First lucky win

2009-07-06T09:00:00.000-07:00

As far as i remember i had never in my life win any thing that have to do with money. Last night during our division meeting, i was lucky enough to win 2 100dollar in the lucky draw.

Whahaha i was so happy that i had the luck. After that i brought my collegues to supper.

Thinking about all my collegues, they are really nice bunch of people. Facing so much rejecting and problems in life and yet still trying hard in this line of business...

Lusi our big lady boss, her life wasnt easy before she become so successful.

Hiaz my dream and this job, i am tear between them. ..

surprise meet up

2009-07-02T07:33:00.000-07:00

Ah 2day i when to the company again.
Still quite reluctant to work there even thought i got 8 units last month. How much i earn? better then average people.
But i return most of it to my mom.... I own her lol..

We had a meeting with all the consultant in my team. Trying to set goal and trying to make us feel hyper.

Looking at this job, it is really a good paying job if and only if you are doing well in this line. But it really relied on sales. Fully commission.. And my dream is to be a trader.. To fight the war in the trading desk. Painfully still stuck in between my choices of career hiaz....
Money and dream !

As i make my way home, on the mrt i saw one female dozing off with her head hanging downwards. Guess what i saw... Drool start flow out of her mouth... YUCKS ..... Young looking ger somemore...

I start thinking of the girl that i would like to be my next GF.. Hmm still i like sweet looking ger, kind hearted, cute looking ger. I wonder what god have install for me lol...

Sometime in life really cannot believe evil (Zhen De Bu Nen Bu Xing Xie). Hnmm in English terms should be "coincidence". As i make my way to take the bus back home. I met up with my primary school friend. Eh not really primary school as in my school mate. Eh maybe she is in the same school as me but not in the same class. Anyway i was too naughty to rmb all this.

As far as i rmb, she was the one who took tution lesson with me. I was always the one getting beat for not doing my home work. HAHAHAa. Guess not much people would know that i was a super useless student in the past. Till i walk out of my first wildness.... Anyway her parent had a cake shop just right behind my mother furniture shop.

Funny thing is that i didnt talk to her for the past ........ 10 years ? As far as i rmb i dont like good student in the past, so i didnt really make much conversation with her...

We catch up on our way back home, since we take the same path back home.. In the end exchange phone number.. Hmm werid stuff... anyway i am still rather concern in my career first.....
Making more friends is always good hahahaaa...

God have a funny way of making your life interesting....
GOD give me my dream job pls lol....

SIck!!!!

2009-06-30T20:25:00.000-07:00

I finally break down after pushing myself around for the last week day.
My cough came back with a friend, block nose is the name. Got really tired and i decided to rest for the day.

Jasper children BEDroom set !...

2009-06-29T07:00:00.000-07:00

i remember that i started to write this blog with the intention of looking into different aspect of life.
Everything is just a line, either on the left side, middle or right side. As personally i am a Gemini, eh Christan shouldn't believe in zodiac, i am always stuck in the middle, confuse with the light and darkness in my heart. Nowaday, i feel i am move alot to the right side. Hope faith and happiness is building up lol...

Over the weekend after my church service with fu kai and sab, i met up with jasper and gf.
I promise to bring jasper over to my shop to get his new bed and in addition help him to dismantle his current one.

Initially i thought he had a small bed, going over there thinking that it would be a easy job.
Guess what, jasper have a children bedroom set ! Erm no comment on a 27 year old man still sleeping on his sweet cute children bedroom set. (You kno those with stairs like a playground bed) With my 10years of experience in furniture, it took my 1hours and a t-shirt full of sweat to get the job done.

After that i see a scene of people who seriously love cleaning starting to clean the mess that i had create. Glad to see that jasper future wife is getting along with his mom hahaaa.

Sometime i really think that in life things happen for a reason.
I never get to know all my friends well enough, i always separated myself with other human beings. But now i am starting to know my friend better, at least i feel that i open the real me to others more.
I got to know cat, jasper wife to be, more now... Had a long long talk with her.
HAhaaa she is a very high D person lol....
Interesting and challenging person. I quite respect her also in what she had gone thought in life.
I hope god will bless them and they will always be happy together.

Ok i guess it would be good to get everyone thinking. So let me post a question ...
Do you think it is possible for a relationship to last if your the other half cannot get well with your family and friends?
And if you have to choose who will you choose?
Taking in the consideration that you love your the other half ALOT !
Will you give up your friends and family?

Those who know me will know the answer in my heart now lol....

IF the journey in life is smooth, it would be a exciting life! lol

chasing my dreams

2009-06-25T23:56:00.000-07:00

As day pass by, time seems to be getting lesser and lesser.
But i am closer and closer to my dreams.

This month in walton, i manage to sell ard 8 units. Sounds good but most of it was from people i know. Honestly i wasnt really keen of continuing the job over here as a full time.
Ha ha have i ever work full time in walton..?

Moving my IT business with my buddy, everything seems to be getting better also. I am actually working for the Thams family. It seems that i had so many business with them. Maybe Travor is really my "Fortune God"...
I am able to get the traffic going in Thomas Web pages (www.hairsynergy.com)-anyone who have some hair problem go visit this website.
And i believe, the Tham family would have alot more business associate with me in the near future.

Other then my work, my dreams is actually getting closer.
Most people who know me, would know that i am crazy over forex, Trading, brokerage...
I got a interview with OCBC, they say they would first shortlist me in their MIS then later in the technological area.
I guess after waiting for 2 weeks, i think i didnt get the position in the MIS, and most prob they are shortlisting me in the technological area...
If i am successful, i would have the chance to become a official business analyst in a bank.

The most exciting interview that i had over the week would be my interview in PhillpsCapital. For those who dont know what this company is, they are actually POEMS the biggest brokage firm in Singapore.
I was invited for an interview for their talent immersion program. Simillar to OCBC they are interviewing candidate to evaluate their talent and place them in the appropriate area in the company.
The interview was conducted by 3 person, the IT(FUCKING AN(ah nei)), a financial guy, and the HR ger.
Initially, the financial guy went to toilet, so i started introducing myself to the IT guy, i started showing off my IT experience, BA in JPMorgan and my experience in bludot.com.
OK i dont know is it the person or just my luck with AN... Even after i clarify that i do front end programming, he started asking a lots of very detail IT question regarding SQL(btw SQL is a database thing more of a very backend programming)... I am like wth, if i got google with me i can get all the answer for you.
It is not about knowing the language, it is about knowing how to apply the knowledge.... Partly mine fault since i dont even regard myself as a programmer anymore...

A short while later, the finance guy came back into the room. I start chatting with him. And finally i get to have a meaningful conversation...
I told him that for the past 6months i had been trading forex, and i really hope to establish my carrer in this line. Many others stuff we said dont remember all clearly. But there is a few word that he said sound positive for me. First he quote "My traders are all engineer, maybe because my boss is a engineer also".
Second "For the next interview, you have to bring in your portfolio!"
Hmm hope it will be good and i will be closer to my trader/broker dream.

May my work honor my lord !!!! lol

NEW TOY NEW CAR

2009-06-15T05:38:00.001-07:00

Bought the new car back home. I am so happy having this new toy.
Inside this car there are alots of gadget. Many many buttons to press.

Most importantly, the glass under the sun shade had a light shining on it when every you slide open the mirror ! omg fun! hahaaa.

O ya i forgot during ytd concert, i saw someone who is almost 9.5 in my book.
Miss Indonesia 2008

Hmm looks abit like my ex. Guess this is the kind that i like lol! chubby cute sweet ger hohohoho...
In person she look much better, cause this is her pic 1year ago.
Ah she is my dream ger wahahahaaa...

O ya i am so proud of myself, i decided to quit one of my bad habit that i pick up last 2years of my life. HAHAHaa i know i will be able to do it as i promise myself.

Even after a fun day of playing with the car, there are still alot of stuff i havnt explore. Damm i love cars ...

Great weekend

2009-06-14T08:26:00.000-07:00

This had been a wonderful and busy week.. Wonderful weekend!

This week we had a celebrity weekend show.
Feature celebrity like : F.I.R, milk, Lui gen hong, Jaclynn , many more .. (PS i forgot)
I took a video of F.I.R singing FLY AWAY and posted it on my facebook.

Ah the lyrics of that song, reminds me so much of what is happening to me.
In the morning, when i am on my way, i call da s reminding him to come as we had booked seat for him. Guess what, when i called him he was still sleeping... initially he didnt want to join us but with just one msg, Da s even rush all the way down to join us hahaa.
I hope he had fun too. After that we went for lunch in tampines 1, that japanese restuarent hoho. Good food!

Reach home around 330, i was damm tired, due t0 soccer ytd and lack of sleep yawnz..
I took a 30min nap, (of cos after i took a shower) then i prepare my stuff to meet Mirabelle.

My experience is really not enough to handle Mirabelle. Or maybe i really can help her to do her website with thousand of requirement at a fix rate of 100 dollars lol.
Anyway i dont think i am able to help her in the end. But as a form of goodwill i sent her a email suggesting what she can do.

Tiring day, next week will be a better week.

HIHI got miss me?

2009-06-11T08:38:00.000-07:00

Hi everyone,

Did anyone miss me? Recently I dont have much time to update my blog as things are getting busy in my life.

Even thought i saw a potential in this business, sad to say I can only view my current work in Walton as a part time job. I feeling guilty and having trouble telling my manage that i am occupied in other work of mine. This team that i am in was the top sales team last year.
I will try my best to call and talk to my manager tmr regarding this issue ba hiaz.

Anyway back to my serious work.
I had a interview at OCBC this afternoon. After a long talk and chatting session (i always regard interview as a chatting session) with the person in charge, she told me to make a choice between the department that i am interested in.

She told my she have one available position in the treasury! (Omg chance to be a trader ?) Disappointingly she wasnt looking for a trader, she offer me a chance in the position of a MIS. I think it is consider as a middle office position. But it is a step toward my trader dream...

And also an available position in the technology side. I expressed my career direction to her leaning toward business analyst support front desk application.

She said to me that she would send my resume for the position for MIS first (waiting for 2nd interview) and if i dont get it she would send my resume to the technology side.

This would be my stepping stone toward my dream hehee. HALLELUJAH WAHAHHAAH

On my other work, my IT business finally we had came up with a direction. I was so excited for the whole of this week in the ideas we have. Furthermore i got two confirm project . Ah i feel happier and happier everyday now lol. This two project mark the starting of everything hahaha.

I am still discussing with other two client, so i could get another two more project for the company. Hehe now i am looking for people to join in my company(shall name it this weekend over my company meeting). But for now we will be concentrating in the project in hand first.

Everyday it will be better the ytd, life get better and better ! hehehe

Memories of spencer..

2009-05-31T06:04:00.000-07:00

2day my aunt dog, spencer had pass away... He has been with us for around 10 years...
At least he die peacefully and cleanly.. he did his big business, he just lay one side and without my aunt noticing, he pass away...
We will always remember this happy and childish dog ...

These few weeks had been busy. I started working in walton.. Not much people know about this company.
IT does pre land development. Meaning they buy land then do its planning drafting out the blueprint for the development, and getting all the required document and approval for those development.

Anyway this could be call the safest investment i every seen. No matter what land value will grow as population grow. But in all investment of cos there will be risk, the only visible risk i seen is the exchange risk and time risk..

Since this is a low risk investment, the time frame will be longer. IT is just the a insurance endowment, like fix deposit but,, with higher return.

Walton seek to achieve at least 20% per annual return for all their customer. Of cos la if possible for more return you get more, if lesser you get lesser.. Their track record on average is 28.9%. Lowest i seen is ard 8percent, which in the end is still higher then inflation..

Any way the guys out there, if you interested in it contact me i will share more information in the good long term investment.

Over the weekend, as usual i will meet up with the guy to go chill out.
On friday, we went to the usual place, winebar to had a drink...
Lucky, there was a event in zouk, some pop wannabe show..
We manage to sneak into zouk from phuthure to get a view of the event...
IT was a damm funny event, 4 contestant fighting for the pop show wannabe.
One fat nerd...
One cool guy...
One cool ger... acting as lady gaga.. (i love her lol!)
One AH GUA.... acting as britney spears

With all the ger and fun ard... We still have to go, because of the ticket we bought for a show at great world... I here by specially thanks ck for asking us to go watch movie and end up not appearing...

Sat is the day where we go to kin kin chalet(won it at a contest in zouk)...
Actually i didnt expect what happened in the chalet to happen...
I went to pick angie up since she is in tampines.. meet up with the guys and had some dinner at coastal sands...

Initially i thought it will be a boring chalet as nothing much would happen since no one seem to bring alcohol.

To my suprise, da s and ky bought 2 bottles of alcohol, one chivas and one voka...
So it all started again ahahah, we played ring of fire, it is a game which i mention in my blog. After 3 rounds of the game, everyone was slightly high.. Only da s and ck is super high...

DA s gone crazy and start saying that he want to play 21 point, and he will be the banker..
Odds are against him.... what the hell is he thinking...
Since he want to get drunk, we just played along... lol

End up he got quite drunk and i took a video clip of the funniest thing he said.. go to my facebook you get to see it lol...

Did i waste my life??

2009-05-20T10:03:00.000-07:00

I feel that after studying so long...
Did so much stuff in my life...
I end up no where at the bottom......
doing something that i spend so much time..

Suddenly feel that having a dog is really better .. HAHAa
At least it will be emotionally attach to you. After the number of years that it had spent with you
Just like my sister poor dog now.. She is so attach to my sister...
I see "LOVE" Hahahaaa

Why does thing doesnt go your way even you work damm hard at it?
Even you think you tried your very best.. IS it enough ?
Blame it to god? Unlucky?
Or simply that you didnt work hard enough ?

I think my life damm exciting la... all sort of shit i experience le...
Think i getting fitter and fitter lol..
Mentally and physically lol!
Had been so blind, so very blind ... lol Guess small eyes isnt that good lol!

life is so interesting, and hard lol! Fun i guess..

Working or not working ...

2009-05-20T10:02:00.001-07:00

long time since i did my last update..

I started my training in Walton as a land banker. Something totally not related to anything i had study til now lol.

I am still trying to get myself convince that this is a good job.
Anyway i am just trying for the first month.
Successful people in this line could easily hit 5 figure.... My boss boss claim 1st month 5 figure easy, if we follow her ways ....

Haha anyway this job would allow me to reach my target of expanding my network... This could successfully help in my own business too.

HA, in my training team it seem like a few people also playing with forex! omg !!!!.. Lucky can learn more from others..
One of the guys even know someone who is in forex for 20years, damm experience in forex.
Hope that i could get closer and learn something from them... Ah! network, be friends, then leach lol!

My boss boss who is a lady, her sales is crazy.... 6 figure one.. Anyway one in a thousand. But it is nice learning from her. At least in the end i will go away with sales knowledge and land banking knowledge...

Interesting thing about her is that it seems that she is using alot of "Secret!".
Lots of stuff she says is very interesting, guess that is a sales person... Learning how to hit the hot spot hahaha..

Will be working hard to hit my 5 figure hahah.. Also on my forex! double income!!! hahaaa

HArd hard hard !!! work !!!!!!!!!!!

Dont be afirad that i call, i am not selling stuff, now i am just someone who likes to help..
Like what trainer says,
if you have money in your left pocket, wouldnt you like to have more in your right pocket ! hahahaa

Impression

2009-05-17T07:10:00.000-07:00

I discuss a certain topic with a few of my good friends.. Identity unknow.

And i realise that a really interesting fact regarding the impression on a person.

Us human tend to judge a others easily, base on first impression, how they dress, how they talk, how they carry themself.
Will this impression be forever? The view that one person had on the other.

Lets take me for example, i am being view as different person by different group of my friend.
What is my real character?

My primary schools friends, who always regard me as good little rich boy. Prince of the furniture palace, the furniture empire.. Someone who had study hard and got into university and become someone who have "future". LOL.

My secondary school friends? hmm i guess iwasnt in good terms with all of them. I also dont really know what they think. But i really have bad impression of all the guys in my secondary school.. hiaz But i love my other girls friends hahaha, rather sad they we dont really contact much now.. hahaa Y lol ....

My poly friends? Maybe i am a jerk ? haahhaa ah damm i really miss my poly times.. So free so fun.. This weekend i got to meet up with them in Don's wedding dinner. So how feel happy that i meet up with them again.

My army friend? BAICHI thats all i can say... that they think of me hahaha

My uni friends? i guess i am anti social to them.

My army friend wil always brand me as the head of baichi.. rather sad but i really dont mind bringing happiness to others hahahaa...

Person A and B say that some person keep having the same impression of who they are in the past. Damm troublesome cannot mention their names.....
Anyway will the people around you know that you are changing if you are always meeting them all the time?
Or will the person will always think that you are that same person?

Personally i think that if you are meeting that group all the time... it would take years long long time before others will realise that you had change.

But if you dont meet that group, it would also take years ....
Maybe it depends on how deep that impression you had on the person in the first place ba..

HAHAAHAaa crappy topic i guess.

Good show bad show

2009-04-27T23:59:00.000-07:00

On the weekend i accidentally watched S factor..

Why the hell would they want the girls to wrestle in a blue blow-up tub fill with green gluey solution...
Sexy to watch ? Cat fights ? Girls bitching around?

I watched that section of the show for around 15mins. Hmm they are doing a good job, manage to get me watching for 15mins... hahahaaa.. Some of the girls look really fit!!!

Enough of that stupid show. I wanted to comment on a good show which is airing on channel 5. "Fighting Spider" is what i call a good show. It about a group of friend, Charlie (typical fat boy), Peter(ang mo kid) and Soon lee. The kampong bully call Ah huat (always bully them) took Soon lee spider and in order to win Ah huat, these 3 kids decided to go Malaysia to find the king spider (Rajalabalaba).
Anyway i like that fat Charlie, damm blur damm cute !!! hhhahaha go watch that show really nice.

Coincidence or THE SECRET?

2009-04-25T23:16:00.000-07:00

This had been a tough week for me in terms of trading.
Short term drawback had been hurting my faith on my perseverance in my success in forex.

Two interesting events happened this week, which puts me into a deep thought of what happened could be the result of my faith, "the secret".

For those who don't know what secret is, i classified it as quite similar to a certain religion.(LOL HAHAAHAA)

In this world it is all about energy, the secret in life is about the laws of attraction. Someone who is think positive will attract positive energy to you, on contrast if you think negatively, you draw negative energy toward you.

In simple term, one should believe in good thing, positive things, believe in yourself in success, feel that you are successful, be grateful in your future success. Plan your success and what to do with those success in the future.
The hard part is that you cannot have any doubt, as this bad evil thought of doubt will manifest and grow.
And lastly, if you are able to achieved the above 2 terms, YOU HAVE to put this thoughts into ACTION.

People who are confidence and believe in themselves are always successful, this is the truth which i believe most people would see in the society.

Everyone have this power, but it is about using it., putting all this into action.
Go to this website if you are interested in learning more about secret:
http://www.thesecret.tv/

I have totally put my mind into my forex career, and focusing on achieving my future success which i see myself as millionaire hahaaaa.

OO YA forgot to talk about my experience.
For the whole week i had been thinking about searching for faith in my success, trying hard to reinforce my faith here and there, but i feel that it wasn't enough.
Coincidentally 2day at my service, they invited a pastor from oversea to talk about faith in success. THE talk totally enlighten my faith again.
SECRET ? COINCIDENCE? who knows....

Another event, is about my scar... Normally when i am busy working on my forex analysis, i would switch on the TV, in order to work i must have some noise hahaha.
FUNNY THING IS THAT, a weird TV show on channel 5 about getting over a break up is airing on the TV. WHY AND WHY ?
On the show, a woman who got marry and live happily with her husband, got a kind of sickness that who get her FAT.. So over the year she grew in size, i mean in size ! (YOU KNOW HOW FAT ANG MO CAN GET)
Eventually the husband got tired of the big size wife, loses interest in her, ending in a divorce.
The woman comment that she couldnt get over her husband, and that she would be sad and cry when ever she remember of the past or see items like photos that would remind her about her broken relationship
So this woman sign up on this TV show hoping to mend her broken heart. In the end she got a make over, slim down, and seriously become really attractive.
She got to know another man and they started dating.
The TV show purposly ask the ex-husband to send the woman over for the date with the new man. ON THE car, the woman commented "I totally got over you!". hmm

In the end, adding salt to the cut wound on the ex-husband, the TV show sent his a video of the woman dating with the new guy.
HAHA guess what the ex-husband commented "Cant believe that i let her go!!" hmm
Coinicidence ? Secret ?

Finally i would like to say, "There is always a sign, help around you, it is a choice by you and yourself that you would want to get it and believe in it."

May the power of secret be with you hahahaaa.....

OVER at Da 's

2009-04-19T06:49:00.000-07:00

We had a party over at Da s house this weekend.
His parents went for another holiday, therefore the house is empty for us.

I held my 3th forex lesson before we start the party.
The lesson was actually target for CK, but the others join in as "who isn't interested in earning more money". I was quite happy that "some" of my audiences were interested in my "Talk".
Anyway sorry guys i wasn't organize enough in my presentation, I will refine my presentation slide better.

So back to the party, i was still very "dui", hokkien for disappointed that on my regular winebar zouk phuture Friday. I saw a girl who is 10/10, furthermore she look like BOA. Sad to say that she was damn dao, hokkien for arrogant and she didn't response to me at all.

We had a very interesting game, which our game master KeKin(sound like very fast in hokkien) thought of.
We had a cup in the center of the table, surrounding the cup is a deck of poker cards. He simply call the poker cards as ring of fire and the cup as goblet of fire(So harry potter ....). And also a cup full of some mixture.
Rule:
1st rule, the one who broke the ring of fire will have to drink whatever in the goblet of fire

2nd rule, Each card had a certain meaning and usage to it. (i dont think i remember all of it)
A 2 3 - > for Red card you can ask someone to drink not from the goblet of fire
- > For black card you have to drink yourself

4 - > Disassosiation (any who fail to give a disassosiation to the givien topic will have to drink)

5 - > Snake eye (Anyone who look eye to eye to the person who had been declare as the snake eye will have to drink)

6 - > Thumb master (when ever the thumb place his/her thumb on the table, last person to place his/her thumb on the table will have to drink)

7 -> Category (any who fail to give a relation to the givien category will have to drink)

8 -> number game (start counting in a clockwise direction, the person who shout 2 number at the same time will tigger a reverse in the direction, the person who shout 3 number will skip the next person )

9 -> Bang (the person beside the one getting bang will have to shout AH)

10 - > Rule master (the person who got this card can set any rule in the game)

J -> odd number drink

Q -> Even number drink

K -> Pour any amount of stuff into the golbet of fire, person who got the last K card will have to drink

It was damm fun at the end for me because, i was the snake eye, the thumb master, and i think kekin set a rule where no one can touch their face.

Most people reaction to avoid looking at another person is to cover the line of sight to that person, since the rule was not to touch thier face, imagine the pain and suffering they are going through as i keep looking at each and everyone forcing them to touch their face.

In addition i was the thumbmaster, no one i say again no one look at me, so they didnt know that i was placing my thumb on the table. HAhaaa most of the time i had to wait a long long time showing them my thumb was on the table then everyone start to panic and start placing their thumb on the table.

On of the most funny incident is when zerron was the thumbmaster, when ky place his thumb on the table, CK shout at ky "Dont joke around with me, you not the thumb master" the funny thing is that ck didnt notice zerron places his thumb until everyone had put their thumb on the table.

Another funny thing about XX, he thought closing his eyes, he will be able to avoid looking at the snake eye, the problem is that closing his eyes, he could see and he broke the ring of fire, as a result he drank the whole cup of hard liqueur.

It was a mental torturing game, which is damm funny and silly. Everyone had a damn good time laughing, (at one time the rule was not to laugh).
In the end everyone keep commenting that it feel weird looking face to face when talking to each other,

Thanks guys i enjoy the night eventhough i had to travel all the way back to bedok haha..

Reborn

2009-04-12T03:50:00.000-07:00

This weekend had been very tiring........
It is the first time after so many months that i feel asleep around 8 plus on Sat night.

Thanks for that person who said that i look happier NOW on Friday night at Zouk.

Suddenly feel that i should comment on a show on channel 5(S factor).
What is the point of having that show? (Attract horny guys to watch?)
What are they trying to proof? (The level Singaporean of intelligent?)

Maybe i shouldn't pass such a harsh judgement on the show, since i wasn't able to keep watching it for more then 5min. I feel that my brain cells are burning by the second as i watched that show.

The girls(my elder sister said i shouldn't use improper English word like "gers" ) in the show do look pretty, but in this world looks is not the only thing. BAD character of a person would make him/her look really bad and ULGY...

I hope that they will not air the show in oversea, it would really reflect badly on Singaporean girls.

You all show be wondering why i put the title reborn.
What happen in Zouk and my Sundayservice make be feel that i am reborning. Not that hair reborn(yawns another of my lame joke.....) but in terms of my character HAPPY

i should be getting back to my work on my weekly forex analysis. BE warn and reminded visit my forex blog and click on my advertisement.. HEHE thanks ,

Hair problem solution!!!!

2009-04-05T10:07:00.000-07:00

I feel that this blog has no theme at all. All i write all sort of messy stuff in my life here.
Maybe the theme is kel messy life.. hmm anyway i decided to write a topic on hair problem.

Some people may not notice about this, like all man i also have some ageing problem, hair problem.
During army times, Gary Sim aka Da s sleep beside me (not side by side by the bed beside me). I notice alot of hair around our sleeping area. It is human nature to notice things around them instead of themselves. I kept thinking that DA s was the one balding. The truth was both of us is on the path of manhood.

Anyway i check the Internet and they provide a cheap natural way to hair growth formula.
The recipec:
¼ cup almond oil or olive oil with ½ teaspoon rosemary oil and three drops lemon-grass oil

I will using myself as a guinea pigs and test on it. And btw if anyone wants the artical pm me on msn: strifeus@msn.com

Crazy night at phuture

2009-04-05T02:41:00.000-07:00

Friday night my gang as usual went to winebar for a drink.

The intention was to go there just for a drink. When i pick up my usual passager, ky told me that Fu kai was oready over there having fun with his colleague in zouk.

Too much detail that i believe i should be sharing, i scare that i will be kill by ky and .. Anyway we have a hell load of fun over there.

Haha only thing that i can say was that our dear fu kai got drunk because ah ho. And they did something stupid.

Fu kai and ah ho got really high over at his friends side before coming over to phuture to look for us. They bought and took over 2 jug of drink (I dont know what it is because...).
So what happen was that they shared table with a group of one guy and 3 gers. On the table there was 3 bottle of liqueur. Ah ho and fu kai get too high that they start stealing the liqueur from them. Maybe because that guy was busy handling those 3 drunk gers so he didnt bother about it, or maybe he is just plain generous... HAHA
That the reason why i didnt really know what drink it was because there is so much Chivas taste that it cover up everything.

Crazy night, we stay til 4 am.... And after i send all the guys home i reach home around 5am plus.
When to sleep for 3hours and i went to soccer. Lol i breach all safety rule of 7 hours of sleep before exercise.

Tired,.. sunday going to get united with god again after 2weeks.! lol

Many mountain ahead of me

2009-04-05T01:49:00.000-07:00

Yesterday afternoon after my soccer i went back to bedok.
I sat down and had a desert with my mom as we start chatting.

I told her i made loses this week. I feel that had just roll down a mountain after having a hard time climbing it.

Looking ahead of me i saw a vast land full of mountains, each mountain is higher then the next.
I know what i am doing is just that starting of the adverture in my life.
Venturing into the unknow.
Fighting for a dream.

I need to focus on more.....

Going to spent less time on trading, better for me now.
Going to be a busy week ahead!!!!!!

My new blog on forex

2009-04-02T09:46:00.000-07:00

hey guys, i had created a blog just for my forex experience.

Feel free to give comment..

http://forexwithkel.blogspot.com/

April fool

2009-03-31T23:40:00.000-07:00

Hmm 1st April, memories started to flood into me.
I was wondering how come i keep remembering some old stuff recently.. It was the fateful day.. THE FATEFUL Day of my life.

This is the day that something important in my life happen.. Haha i remember at mos.. She got drunk by my favourite long island tea.. And many stuff happen. AH i wonder she still remember or not that is also her first drunk and vomit day .. haha

Still working on my investment blog. Having very bad headache these few days..

Maybe due to lack of sleep..

I am looking into NZD AUD JYP market session.. Which require me to wake up ard 5-6 am every morning.. pain in the ass, maybe i will give up on that trading timing...

My first virgin lesson

2009-03-31T08:47:00.000-07:00

Today i give my first forex lesson to my dear DA s.

This after while i was analysing the market, Da s told me that he wanted to come over and learn some stuff about forex over the msn.

I told him to come over, but i wasnt ready to give a good lesson.
Since i needed him to print the notes, i ask him to come over anyway.

I hope i give him a fruitful lesson even thought it is very unorganize.
From DA s expression, it seem that he got really interested in forex. And he finally adminted that it is not as easy as it seems.

I am still working on my new blog, which will contain all my forex information and experience. Will release out the address once i am done..

hiaz MARKET REALLY DIFFICULT TO TRADE!!!!!!!1

TMR APRIL FOOL confirm fun at zouk whahaha

Update on ME JUST ME LOL

2009-03-22T07:11:00.000-07:00

Hi everyone. I guess most people are worry about my forex future after my loses on FEB.

Dont worry guys, FEB wasnt a good month too much stuff had happen, futhermore mentally i was weak. Lastly many things happen in the market which made it very choppy.

I took the last 2 weeks of feb and first 2 week mar to explore my new and improve strategy. Last week i made some profit, nullifying my loses on Feb.
Next week i will be pushing my strategy to the limit testing more.. Hope i hit my profit target by the end of this month..

In addition, i had decided to take in my first few disciple, Angie, cy and karloc.. I am teaching at no cost, but when they had some profit in their trading they promise to pay me some school fees. Anyway friends la, money not important i just hope they will walk with me to the path of millionaire lol!.

I will be posting my profit on march by the end of next week. Await my friends wahahaha..

Anyway lots of people had been commenting on the bad english that i am using on my blog.
HAHAa i guess i will be working on my english too. This will prevent readers from vomiting blood while reading my blog.

Next on my internet business, i was too busy with my forex that i havnt got enough time to start developing my ideas..
Futhermore i had by business proposal and many other things to settle.
I will force myself to sleep less work more on my internet business lol.
And also i will try to spent more time in writing my progress on my forex on my blog..

Adidas Sales

2009-03-22T05:22:00.000-07:00

I was recommended by CY to work at the 3 days Adidas sale.

Maybe i was unlucky or maybe it was blessing in disguise. I worked at the bag counter. Dont be mislead by the name "bag counter", i wasnt selling any bags...

My job was to guard the enterence and force people with big bags to deposit their bag at the bag counter. And yes i am just a bag care taker wahahahaaa. This was to prevent people from shop lifting ...

Only good thing i can think of is that i get the chance of seeing all the pretty gers that came into the sales.

But i think the work load is the most tedious comparing to my so call buddy KARLOC lol.
Who is working at the shoes section.

People were carring werid stuff like laptop, sailing stuff, big load of heavy stuff. And the worst thing that can happen is that you got the bag with smelly sweat of erm "some type of people" lol!!
The only reward is talking to pretty ger when they pass you their nice smelling bag.. EE i am like some smell pervert lol!...
And yes i like nice smell.. IT somehow attract me hahhaaaa... smell.. lol

Anyway i was damm piss at some of the other part time work is working with me.
Damm those JC Little boys, erm i not against them just that they are boys...
2 of them are just standing there like a idiot and not doing any work, unless someone ask them to. Keep trying to eat snake, i seriously dont like their attitude in working.
Anyway i couldnt do anything also, the in charge even reprehend on their action.

They become slightly better, slightly only. One of them was late for work 2day.
WA KAO KIDS 2day not responsiblity... KIDS ... BOYS ....

Anyway they are still young i dont really blame them.. wahahhaaa..

In the end i bought items worth ard 500 dollars but at the price of 120dollars, which is half of my pay. Got a very nice shoe and jacket whahaha. Got some stuff for my brother.. I love him wahahah..
KAo money not easy to earn, comparing to my forex in terms of physical la.. Mentally still forex is killing me whahahaa ...

Was a bit sad that i wasnt able to joing Sab and fu for chruch, our main pastor is back.. Nvm good thing about citi harvest is that they are very high tech.. They have online streamming for their services..

Any my dear brothers and sisters and friends out there... Go and look for the video in citi harvest on the service regarding relationship..
Seriously it taught me alot, and it was one of the source that make me relize everything and wake up totally and facing the new me now WAHAHAHA

Now i am call the positive YES MAN...

Feb lost

2009-03-18T00:02:00.000-07:00

Current market situation

2009-03-07T08:20:00.000-08:00

WArning warning, Current market is a crap.

I believe you guys out there had heard many news regarding how bad the economy is.
There is a saying, the currency market shows the earliest signal of how the markets is currenly.

I had been working on a new strategy in forex. The market had become very choppy, as many mix signal are affecting the market. Daily movement of the market had be up and down, down and up...
Trend trading which my school had taught me will not work in current market. AND PLS my memtor in forex say that his strategy works in all market condition. From my analysis, long term will not work but short term, maybe...

I am working on Elliott wave, A SUPER KAN CHIM, a very interesting method to analyze the market. And also the most basic of forex trading, Resistance and Support level Trading.
I believe all this method could work together to increase the chance of wining a trade. Did a few testing on the strategy, Lose a bit win abit, still undergoing lots of research by me. But i myself believe that resistance and support, is the one that can work in all market condition. But it is more diffcult for normal crowd to understand it.
Experience is more important. Still i am such a "noob" juinor in forex trading.

JUst to update the guys out there on what i am doing.
I starting a join venture with my friend in fasion design...(not as a designer)
Working on my own gaming business with my brother..
Forex forex forex which is killing my brain....

i am fine my friends

2009-02-12T01:07:00.001-08:00

Before i begin, please look at my results in my forex school:

http://www.forexasiaacademy.com/main/roll-of-honour/

I am glad to see that wenkai is doing good also, jia you wenkai aim for millionaire lol

I guess many people are wondering how i am doing. And wat happen to my relationship..

To let you all know i am recovering, hard but i will be moving on.

To simplify what had happen in my relationship, there is no more love...

Most people around me know that i committed my all into this relationship, i am ironically happy that alot of my friend ard me talk to me and consoled me.

WAT DONT KILL YOU MAKE YOU STRONGER...

I will recover as times passes but it wouldn’t be easy. She has been so much of a part of my life., everything i do has her in my memories...

So i did some silly stuff made 2 wrong trade. HAHA seriously emotion will cause failure, i learn my lesson that i should never mix my feeling to it.

I was thinking that if i trade i would get her out of my mine. AHHA but i am wrong.

2day, 12 feb i finally recover much better. And the long awaited trade i am aiming for came to me. In forex, i am more of a sharp shooter and a bit of risk taker. Since i always try to enter the trade earlier, I uses news and prediction to enter the trade earlier. Risk higher but profit also higher.

I taking that GBP is getting weak again, made 2 trades against GBP, ard 10% of my capital. Ah if these 2 trade take full profit i will recover all my loses and my confidence. People don’t be like me revenge trading is bad…

I tried to practice good trade physiology and money management.

Going back to work on my business stuff.

The only regret now left is me is that i dont think i will ever find those kind of feeling back. HAHA time will tell ba.

Honestly to all the guys out there who still dont kno this fact about life.

Many people told me this, even some of my past collague told me this.

MONEY CAREER = everything..

so guys work hard on earning money wahaha.

I am still setting my goals to be millionaire in 2-3years time. A dream but achievable and i will proof to her that i am not dreaming.

Jan wining

2009-01-30T19:25:00.000-08:00

This is my jan winning... Very happy

After waiting for 1 week i made another trade on 30th jan, Hoping EUR will go down..
i went out with the guys for a dinner.. hahha linpei came, was very shock. So when i reach home i settle one of the trade and currently i have a equity of 10k
I had hit my 100% portfolio in 2months time... Or you can say almost 85% just this month ...
I would continue and try my best to maintain wat i am doing here.
HAhaha hope a few more months later more people will be confidence in me and start investing in me lol!!!!

TAKE A LOOK GUYS hardcore cash in 1month with just 5k capital.... !!!!

Investment

2009-01-21T06:10:00.000-08:00

I told quite a lot of people on my investment of forex...

Ok forex is basically know as foreign exhange market. It is the trading of currency. You can either buy a currency pair like USD/JYP if you favour USD or sell if you are against USD. SO this is the basic buy low sell high easy lol...

OK to people it is know as the investment with the most RISK. YOU lose alot you win alot.. And why? ok for a standard account in forex, you are trading 1:100 leavage basically for one lots size, you are trading 100k value of the currency. THAT MUCH!!!!! scary right.. so with the leavage you can use 1k to trade a 100k value of the currency.

But if you look at it, at most you lose 1k, and the amount you can win is unlimited!!!!!! So it is not as dangerous, if risk management and money management is apply here. But i agree it is the most dangerous investment lol.

So a few people think that wanting to make forex my career is abit too dangerous.. Hmm i agree to it and i am trying to find job. But if a full time job means that i wouldnt have so much time to do my forex. and i wouldnt be able to earn what i am earning now.

Look at it if i found a good job earn 5k per month, after 10 year i earn 1million okok with some bonous and some increament, maybe 8year.. without spending ho....
But forex wise if i maintain, and if i maintain my record, 2year, i will have 1million..
I know la dream, hahaha many people must be thinking that i am dreaming.. HAHHAAaaa

Ok i am in a good time now, first month i didnt do as well earn 1k plus then lose back ard 400, so total ard 750USD earning.. Thats ard 15% of my portfolio..

This month til now, i lose ard 50dollar, earn 3.2kplus... this month push my portfolio to 80% increment.. i guess iam doing well, hope i can maintain this lol!!!!!

Still looking for a job hope there will be new after new year. But it doesnt look very good, lol singapore just release its report doesnt sound good also hiaz..
STUDY FOR FUCK!!!! end up it really fuck me up lol!!!!

So anyone out there got lobang contact me hohohohoo..

My winning

2009-01-20T21:22:00.000-08:00

This month winning til now: abit blur dont kno how to put la lol

Where to go wat to do??

2009-01-19T20:06:00.000-08:00

Hmm these few days i am think what should i do for my future...
Seriously no job very sian, but if i get a job do it have the time for my forex!!??

ON my forex i started with 5k USD, in 2 month my portfolio hit 60% increase le hmm it is really paying better then a normal job...

My parent and gf hope i get a real job.. a seriously job, and treat my forex as a part time.. BUt hahah where to find a job that give me the time to do my forex ?

Thinking reallly hard... wahahha.. Hoping tat someone would find me for a job after the new year ba.

Got a few lobang to do financal planner, yawnz good name only, simple term is just a policy seller.

Last few day i got to know a guy.. HE is just 22 years with a unknow diploma.. But guess what is he doing now...
HE is a relationship manager at citibank, think doing corprate customer.. HE said he is just lucky met the right person at the right time...

OIE STUDY for fuck!!!! where there is miliion way to earn money other then study lol !!!! feeling quite dumb holding a useless paper...

I starting to do my website that i discuss with fu kai and xx.. IT is true i really dont have solid idea.. hiaz now my life so nua really cannot take it la...
i want to find something to do........ yawnz!!!!!!! SO OUT THERE anyone got a good job tell me THANKS.... ERm maybe parttime one lol..

MY plan is acutally to be good in forex and start my own investment company help pp do invest get commision... And now maybe just find part time job, and start doing my own website... YAwnz la... But many people just keep thinking that i am dreaming that i can be millionaire throught forex... Hiaz lol...

My aunt told me i can do my forex and get something to study ... NO i dont want to study anymore.. i want earn money stuff..
OR maybe i should take the guys idea go sell my bee hoon... LOL since i am such a good cook lol !

Anyway it is quite true that, even thought you know big shot, got talent, got skill, but no luck.. Still nothing lol !!! HOW COME I THOUGHT MY BAZI SAY i lucky this damm month... very yawnz leh .... After new year ba, i will be looking for consultant job, think i really want to work with people rather then computer...

I love programming, i have lots of passion for it.. But too much hard work, not worth it.. I feel that ialways go into a trance state when i do programming lol !!!!! Sense of achivement when my program is done, just like giving birth to a child lol..

Ok i going to start writing my web application and my game le WAHAHAHA... LIFE SUCKSSSS yawnz

Dinosaur

2009-01-07T02:11:00.000-08:00

These few days busy with my forex thing. So happy i oready hit my 40% portfolio grow le.
Oready earn back the school fees. But everyday so bore watch stupid channel 8 old tv shows lol.
Now everything will be my profit wahaha.

In facebook i put up some comment that i am full time doing forex now.
So guess what that long lost non-contact jackson contact me with the messager on facebook.
He ask me what application i am using for my forex, he say something like "what EA you using" you using. I said "WHAT EA=?" then he keep saying EA EA EA. Aiyo u all kno la he lost lost one live in his own world. After a few mintues OF EA i finally understand what he wanted to ask. I told him that i use IBFX, seriously a good tool.
So he said that he is also interested in it, i told him i can teach him for a certain sum of school fees hhaaa.
HE say learn for wat just ask his firend to do it for him. HE said that his friend is charging 50% of his profit. A 7 years long friend charging him 50%, what if he lose the money ? have jackson think of it. In forex there is nothign call confirm earn money one.
I told him my charges is just 20% for friends.
Then more shocking stuff that he say is that his firend can hit 100% grow in 1.5month !!!!
That is ard 50% per month ! i think his friend realy good.
So i told him go and try out ba if lose money then come find me, but i not as GOOD as ur friend... whahaha.

DAMM FUCKING Bangala call me phone again. FUCKING DUMB pp keep calling the wrong number

Good good wahhaha

2009-01-06T22:09:00.000-08:00

New Year

2009-01-03T08:33:00.000-08:00

Happy new year. I know abit late but busy these few days la.. hoho

My baizi say this is a good year for me hoho. At friday i made a trade, now earning ard 300 hoho. Good year i guess, many nice thing happen even just for these few days.

Vey paiseh christmas

2008-12-24T10:47:00.000-08:00

Ah what a paiseh christmas

i told the guys that i didnt want to join in the gift session le. Cause i really spend alot these few months and i not holding a job. So can save how much i try to save for now.

Sry guys that i bought a crapy gift. HAha but my been hoon and cheese egg is very good right.

At least more popular then someone else food, for example those stupid crystal jade food which cost like 200 plus. Ending each person paying 25 dollars!!!!! yawnz we got like 20 pp there. So hmm not worth it.

I think my been hoon worth more then 200 lol.

Thanks for the good time that we have hahahahaa. Even thought it is a very tiring drinking session.

Everyone got very drunk. DA s, garlock, ky(one cup die liao), cy (very suay person), me?, Kang(repeating again, and lost his senses lol), xx(hiaz only hiaz), and some other who is not so drunk.

Thanks to my super duper mixing drink, lots of them get really high hahah.

Anyway not a bad christmas alone with my friends, hahah food not the best but fun.

I suggest that next time we prepare our own food, that will be more fun, and more meaningful.

ok good day guys lol.

Troublesome Old maid

2008-12-23T06:30:00.000-08:00

Yawnz a messy day for me.
Early in the morning i took the trouble to travel down to bedok to fetch my dad to settle that stupid crazy flower shop idiot old maid. Kao create so much trouble for us and still we give her cheat rent.

Ok the situation is that the old maid, wanted to reduce the burden of the rental, so she rented a space out of the shop to a old lady for selling real flowers.. btw the old maid sell mostly fake flowers(feeling the baichi?).
More on the old lady. That old lady have 8 children, so she dont have trouble surviving without working. The purpose of working is just to make her time more useful, instead of rotting at home and waiting for her death. In addition, the husband have "lao ren ci dai zeng", looking at her can c that she is quite pity.

That siao old maid jealous of the old lady, having a bunch of regular customer, so she decided to kick her out and sell the real flower herself. And the old maid only give that old lady 2 days to move out.

End up the old lady die die stick there dont want to move at all. I heard there are some fights. Even police came over for this issue.
The HBD people even came over to take photo of the illgale postion that the old lady is using.

So that day i have to bring my father to Yishun town concil. Hiaz dumb people there dont know where they put the document for aggrement signing. I paid the money for the yellow box area then went to that fucking old maid who act sick and dont want to come settle the payment herself. I pass her the recipt. Then that dumb Town concil, ask us to go back to sign the paper since they found it.
Run here run there waste so much time, DAmm bo liao day la.

Precious when to taka turn around flight hope she have a safe trip

DAMM

2008-12-18T08:50:00.000-08:00

Make some loses 2day yawnz...

Should have sell earlier when i am earning haha. But nvm it is a part of doing investing. You win some you lose some. Overall just need to be a winner.

Dont feel so pressure in doing trading le. Market is turning again. i guess iwill sit around and look look. Wait for a better chance hehe.

2day boring nothing much to do, precious gone flying again. BLur her make a mistake haha. Going to pick her up on sat hehe.

Stil looking for job yawnz.

Jan my luck will turn i believe so hoho

Success

2008-12-17T21:01:00.001-08:00

I was getting better at my forex trading.
Earn 1300pips last night damm shiock

Maybe i really can depend on forex to earn a living.

Currently i planing to nua a month or so. And also look at the market, to find a good job or a good business to start up.

Still on a planning phrase on my internet business and gaming idea.

HEhe according to my Bazi 2009 is a good year for me. Time to grab all opportunity and push start my career hehe.

My life story chapter 2

2008-12-13T09:16:00.000-08:00

Wa i saw the web hit count for my blog. I was shock that 31 hit liao hooho.
Thanks guys/gers for looking at my blog hoho.

Actually i got a more exciting blog that i write for my precious and me one, but that one ah is private hoho.

2day i sent my precious to airport. She is going on a flight again. Ah precious i will miss you one.

At the WENG SHI ZHONG HUI dinner, yawnz boring dinner. Guess who i saw someone that over the last 20year i never seen, of cos la same surname as me la. IT was Weng XXXXX Hai. Haha fucking dao looking asshole. Even the guest of honour came in he also sit down eat and eat don’t care anything. I observed something from him. He is also suffering the same problem i “had” hahha. He was balding, i saw a big big open patch on his head lol. Oie oie oie mai siao siao ho, my condition improve liao ok, or you can say controlled le.

Continue with the boring dinner, just hoping i get my money and fuck off from this place yawnz.

Chapter 2:
Times passes by fast, i was going to enter my kindergarten. I move from my grandparent’s house to bedok. I remember that we live in the shop itself. There was a small room made at the back of the shop just for my family to live in.
As i had mention in my previous post, that shop was my playground hoho. My sibling and me always play "house" in that room using blanket to cover here and there hahah. And ya i was with gers all the time so i play girly stuff, Barbie dolls, "JA JA JUI" and much more girly stuff. Maybe that’s the reason why i am so feminine.

My life story chapter 1

2008-12-11T06:28:00.000-08:00

In order to remember my life i decided to write down my life story in this blog. Sorry for the bad english hahha i will try to refine it as much as possible

Chapter 1: Spoiled

I am born pessimistic, never i view this world to be happy.
Human are born to suffer, the bearing of a child is suffering itself. After born suffering will never end till you die. That’s life. Human are always trying to survive clinging on the hope of having a happy life, enjoyable life, LOVE life.

I was born in the year of 1982, i was the first and eldest male child born in my family. Normally in a Chinese family eldest male born are consider as the youngest son of my grandfather.

While i was young i was love by many, but i only think that my mom is the only person i know that love me unconditionally.

I have a few vague memories of my younger days on some stuff that i did that was very naughty.
My grandfather lives in semi-D house. I remember that the front door of my house is a huge metal gate. When i was the age of four, i keep climbing up the gate and falling off it, ending up with a huge bump on my head. Other then climbing gate i even like to climb out my cradle, anything that i can climb, i climb.
Maybe i was born adventurous.

The next dumb thing that i remember was cause by my ever adventurous character and learning ability. My father has a shaver which every morning he will use it. I would always hide one side looking at him using that amazing blade to remove his ticklish beard.
One day, while my parent was out for work and i was free from the clutches of my parents.
Taking the blade in my hands, i look into the mirror searching for the slightest hair on my chin. The only hair that i could find other then my own hair, is my eyebrow. I shaved off a bit of my eyebrow and when off happily thinking that i have become a "Man". I was then being laugh at for the next few week, until my eyebrow grew back a little.

Ah don’t worry, this is not the end of the amazing blade.

My parent have a furniture shop, i would always wonder in the shop, hiding and play around. As long as i remember that place was my childhood playground. Whenever there is nothing to do in the shop, my parent would rent those Hong Kong fighting drama. As normal boy would be, I was totally attracted to those fight movie.
Normally in those films, it would revolve around the famous "Shao Ling Shi", there is a saying "Tian xia wu ling chu shao ling", meaning that the origin of all martial arts is from "Shao Ling Shi". A highly skilled monk would appeared in those film and help the lead character.
I came to a conclusion that to be all power and mighty in martial arts, the first time i need to do is shave of my hair.

You all should have guessed what i did in the end, luckily my parent manages to catch me in the act and stop my silly act. I would always think of this incident when i look at that photo i have when i was young. My elder sister would be standing behide me and covering my head with her hands..

I guess i end it 2day i will continue with my story tmr

LOVE = trust + respect?

2008-12-08T04:02:00.000-08:00

I overheard my sister on the phone while i was in the toliet shiting and bathing.
She is saying stuff like man are "Jian", and many other stuff. It seem to me that she doesnt believe in love anymore like she used to.

The recent accident i had with relationship makes me think alot regarding LOVE.
It seem to me that most people in the society doesnt believe in LOVE anymore. Or i could say that in most people's heart there is no more "true love".

What happen? Why would people think this way?
Too much cheating, breakup, heartaches?

I guess human are sterotyping being. If they faces some bad experience they would always hold back in defence whenever they faces that same situation again. They will think that it is the same it will be the same.

For example, a person once had a bad bad bad relationship, the next time he/she faces a new relationship, he/she would always had that previous bad relationship in mind and would just come to a conclusion that this new relationship will end bad eventually.
It is really sad that the society had become this way. But it is just human normal mechanism to defence themself to protect themself.

Maybe i am also affect by the impression of bad relationship ba. But in this relationship i have faith that i found true love.

I look throught the website on love. I saw something really interesting.
It is a pdf file on christian stuff. One of the most interesting that they mention is regarding love.

What they view love regardless of all those love god stuff first. They show a diagram
Showing that LOVE is supported by Trust And Respect.
I find it so very truth, Once in a relationship there is not trust and respect, love will eventually fall.

Sleeping tmr then i talk more ba yawnz

Back

2008-12-08T01:01:00.000-08:00

Over the past few weeks months? dont kno la many have happen.
I almost lose what i treasure most.
Lucky that i have my friend all ard me

I going to take this chance to thanks them all. Cheeyong and angie , ky , fk , da s , karloc, kk, insignificant ck that is ard but also not ard lol, and finally XX the person that i once detest lol.
Maybe because to the incident that xx vomit in my car and even after that he dont feel sry for doing that ba, since then i may have detest his attitude and view in certain things. But i know he is not a bad person. As long as its the BRC guys are now together, those are all the nicest guys i know i my life. People that have gone through the worst time in army, getting fuck getting torture and in the end still stay together as friend. I love them all haha.
Sorry guys that i had put a lot of aeroplane a few times. haha or many times ba, really sorry.

From xx story i believe he had change alot since then, i really hope he could recover and back to that person that i detest most hahaha.
XX have been giving me lots of support and consoling me i guess he knows what i going through the best haha.
Fk nice also, sry i disturb you in the morning with that call thanks anyway.

Starting from tmr i would write about my life ba.
Hoping maybe when i reach 40years old i will publish a book about my life hahaha.
You all must be think i am siao lol !

Blog

2008-11-16T00:47:00.000-08:00

Hiaz long time didnt write blog liao.
Too busy life sucks.... yawnz.

Why blog?
why would someone write a blog and share it with the world?

I was thinking of starting a IT company. So i had a discussion with my possible future partners on the idea that we had. So we were on a discussion on how a webpage would get popular. i asked them how come facebook and some blog become so famous now. Mr F say because human are vain they want to show off want others to see them see their picture, life...

is human vain ?

Blessed !

2008-10-03T09:30:00.000-07:00

Some time i think i am quite blessed.
From my previous post, i got a 100 dollar summon...
Then during the week i got some problem with my jpmorgan fresh grad program..
The deadline of my verbal test should be 3 Oct, but yesterday 2nd Oct when i reach home from work, sitting down starting wanting to do my online test, and guess what i wasnt able to proceed because the application thought i didnt do it before the deadline.
Getting really piss off i start sending like 3 email to their support, furthermore i email my boss to help me contact the HR regarding this problem..
Feel so down for the pass few days ..

BUT 2day things start to get better, received a email to do the online test and my fine had been waived off after my appeal. Guess i am blessed lol.

Born happy

2008-09-29T06:38:00.000-07:00

Damm busy for the pass few days.... damm !
i was preparing for my girlfriend bday... she wanted a BBQ bday this 21st birthday.. DAMM BUSY on friday nite after rushing all the way to east side to be my gf driver, i reach home ard 2330, rush over to prepare a strawberry cheese cake 0030 then bake all the way til 0200. TIRED lol sometimes i really think is it worth it to treat my precious so nice... hiaz life suck hahaha.
The next day....
After my morning soccer i went over to my gf house. started to run ard to get all the required necessary items... Being a nice guy like i always does .. i accompany her brother down to grab some item off a supermarket. And guess what i got, 10min after i get back to my car... 100 dollar ticket!!!!!!!!! my god ..
Sometime i wonder, i shouldn't be a nice person.. something bad always happen to be whenever i am nice... hiaz but i guess GOD has his way of doing stuff lol always making me realized that i should make a small mistake in life lol

Born Gay?
2day i had a discussion with my colleagues.. Some of them say i look like gay and stuff like that... Yawnz ...
So getting to the point. I told them i believe that as a guy, it is impossible that a guy who is born normally would change his sex preference.
But the BIG friend of mine say that she know some guy who after suffering a bad relationship with a woman, changes his sex preference to .. Gay ...
I was like !! you SURE?
Hmmm Are Gay born to be GAYS ?

K enough of all this gay shit yawns... nothing wrong looking more feminine HOHO

Sleeping too tired to think...

Heaven?

2008-09-23T06:53:00.001-07:00

2nd post...

My gf told me i should not put too much sensitive information in my blog. Hmm hmm hmm.. hiaz no freedom, born not free lol..

Working hard 2day hoping i really secure a job position in my internship company.. Even thought my boss had been promoting me to every single personal he manage to drag over to see what i had been doing, i really not sure that he will secure a position for me in the company.. Hmm i guess i will talk to him personally tomorrow regarding this lol.. God bless me lol!

O ya God.. hmm really sensitive ... hope no one get offended by this.
Ok the other day i was talking to one of the interns who is working in the same company as me. He is a vegetarian. So we are like discussing about his religion and why he is a vegetarian
and why being a vegetarian are good .... Many details don’t really want to talk about it.
He told me he believes in after life, which I somehow also believe in. So i ask him "You believe in religion so that you could secure a position in heaven?” He took a moment to think and smile at me saying nothing.

Suddenly a thought came into my mind:
Many people is afraid of after life, worry where will they go, will they go hell and suffer for eternality?
Isn’t it a very selfish thought wanting to secure a position in heaven?
Does a person go to heaven thinking this way?

Yawns think so much for what lol... My problem is think too much hahhaha.
Want to play game liao hoho tmr then i write more...

Virgin Post

2008-09-22T06:27:00.000-07:00

OO my first post.. Cant believe i would start this blog.
I guess this would be a good place for me to emo and complain all about how sucky lifes are LOL...

So ok lets complain about the DRIVERS in singapore.....
WHY THE hell is there jam EVERYWHERE !!!!! Every single day jam jam jam ... YAwnz Bad drivers, **male drivers, P**** male drivers everywhere, old old man or worst old **man drivers

Reason:

Cars getting cheap so drivers (BAD Drivers) who seldom drive (those who cannot afford cars) start getting cars
So call good drivers like to change and change and change lane all the time so that they can save many 10sec of their lives and waste like 20min of others
and P**** drives who like to break every 10 sec
many more..... feel free to comment lol!

I believe the government should conduce like a yearly test and give award to those who are good and suspend those who are really bad drivers. That could possible save the jamming issue in Singapore.

My Indian friend took 3 days leave to have fun in Malaysia. OMFG interns working as a interns take leave to have fun...

Quote of the day: 1st class in study doesnt mean 1st class brain or working attitude

Hmm i guess that all for 2day i need to change my blog design. I am a pro programmer anyway lol cant tolerate the ugly website i have..