Sad world or made to be sad.. But is it really sad?

i suddenly got alot of inspiration to write 2day..

I know that this world is a sad world.. Many people are hurt and destroy, as you grow up the more pain you receive... People dont believe in love, and they think that everything comes with a price... The more hurt you get the more defensive you get. Either you take it positively and become better and never hurt another person, or you take it negativity and become someone selfish bastard, who rather hurt others first then you yourself..

IS the society evil and corrupted, or it is the people who made it this way.. HIAZ chicken and egg thing...

If it is the people who made society, why cant it be made good, happy and hopeful...
I believe out there, there is still alot of nice and good people.. Who believe in true love, who believe in selfless giving..

Sad to say so i am not those nice good people... But i am working towards it..
I always wanted recognition for the good things i did.. i want something in return after i did something good.
And if i dont get it i get piss off.. And yes i admit, I am such an asshole.... BUT i believe many would agree with me most people are like tat...A selfless giving is never easy.....

I was giving motivation talk to one of my friends.. Really sad to find out that she was so similar to who i was when i was younger... NOT A GD THING TO BE ME..
When i was young, my mom will describe me as a very grey person.. I always tell my mom there is no meaning in living, all human is just waiting for their death.. And every time i would tell my mom i want to die lol... But before i do that, i wanna earn alot of money, and start bombing the whole world killing all the evil people around... Apparently someone beat me into bombing lol!!!!
Shit will i get catch if i say thing hmm.. i hope not ... lol...
I was someone who has no hope no faith.. Condemn by everyone in my life.. I wasnt a gd student, and not really that kind of good kids lol...
I keep saying that i was a half Christan, cause i believe in god, but i hate wat he is doing to me and i dont like church itself..

CAN YOU BELIEVE how much i change damm it lol...

Life is interesting many thing happen in my life, changes me, making me to be a better person.. i know i still got a long way to go but i am working hard..
I will keep my faith in goodness in life WAHHAHA...

Abit lost what i am writing again..
Anyway there are many examples of selfless love.. For example, a mother carrying a child for 9month and giving birth.. Even as a man i know, IT is not a easy task being a woman.
My love .. opps i dont think so lol...
Wat else damm lol... Aiyo alot la just have faith lol!

In conclusion, let what is bad happen around you, to make you a better person..
Believe there is love in this world, doesnt mean a fail relationship or a bad break up means the whole world there is no love... There will always be one person made for you. as long as you hold on to tat faith you will find tat person..

DAmm am i so positive now.. wat crap lol! THIs is the positive side of me writing.. negative side it too tired after negativity of 27 years!!!! but seriously even thought i not really ready prepare to another relationship..
i really do believe the one will come.. and my "TRUE" love will appear.. And whatever i am going through is making me a better person for tat person..
Kao!!! you are one damm lucky person that person who ever you are lol..

Nothing is true unless it is truly tested!

How should i start this....
i had been thinking of whether to write about my own testimonial for the last few months.
Haha i am scare that my buddies will think i "siao" christainality.. Even thought some of them oready know i am very "siao"..

Hmm i really forgot what i write about myself in the last few post, by repeating it will sound rather naggy lol! even thought as a sales person i must be abit naggy.. just like my manager DARREN...

DARREN i not scare you read my blog... DAMM YOU wahahhahahhaa....
Never ever motivate me, only know how to splash water on me...
KAO I never need you, split out your rideover on me as the team play time funds!

I think i am having alot of balls by writing this... WAHHAHA

oo ya i must remember the theme 2day!... nothing is true unless it is truly tested!
i think i should start talking about this before i start the 2nd topic...

I believe i did mention that many amazing stuff happen in my church.. What GOD present had satisfy all my need in my life...
Each time i faces some problem in life, or feeling down, as soon as it is Sunday, i go church, i will get my answer to those problems..
What is interesting is tat every time the pastor will be talking about thing that will help me to resolve my problems.. Chance? or maybe everyone faces same problem all the time?

Due to the importance of listening in my job, i believe my listening skill had improve...
Crap i am having random thoughts again!..
okok back to wat i am going to talk about...

Many will be wondering how come in life there is always obstacle and bumps..
Nothing is easy nothing is always as smooth.
Why is it so?
I believe in life nothing should be easy! Cause you never treasure things/people that is easy to get/treat you well..
Only when you make a effort and get it then you will treasure it.
Only when you are tested then you TRULY treasure it...
Life is JIAN, human is JIAN...
I believe most people will agree with me

For example, love is never true never real unless it had been tested and survive through it.
And only through all the hardship then, people will treasure it... Unless eventually you will take for granted and eventually lose it ...
VERY true very true1!!! lol..
Even in items, money! People would only treasure only after they know how hard it is to get it.

Because of this, life itself is always difficult unless you know how to treasure and appreciate things around you.
But normally people doesnt... IT IS True very very true lol...

So guys out there, everyday of you life maybe a challenge, it may be hard at time.. Take it as a training.. take it as a modeling of your character...
Every bad experience comes with a better person ...

But i dont mean just by taking hard times you will eventually become a better person. IT IS very important to learn from all this bad experience... first you must acknowledge then change, and eventually you will become better ...

HAaha i just wanted to share my experience, hoping tat it will motivate some of the people around me that currently faces some problem in their lives..


One of the most happy things tat i encounter last week was someone told me tat i look happy now...
DX one of my bestest of bestest girl friend, called me and said that i sound much much happy comparing to last time.. I am really happy that my change are obvious..

Life is really good once you start noticing things around you whahaha!... I really wanted to say some crazy Christan stuff but, i dont want to turn people off lol!
Just remember everyone of you out there every good things will happen to you if you believe.. Sometimes bad things happen to wake you up, to make you treasure things around you, Take it positively and everything will become better.. Positive attract positive!! lol..

werid dream

I am back to who i was better then before, but something stuck me and i know it wasnt the same.. i wasnt that happy at time.. memories and emotional stuff affect me again..
I think it is that time of the month for me again! lol....

I got a very werid dream which i still remember after a few days.
I was in a hair salon, some really high class hair salon. I remember some big shot hair dresser was helping me to cut hair. She have a male name, which i dont really remember, then she got some really long hair and wear a big big spec!...
Weirest thing is tat she is a china ger.......... then she dye my hair gold!!! WERID WERID...

i admit i am thinking of highlighting my hair hmm, i rmb tat my dyed hair make me look older.

Over the weekends i also had a gathering with my poly mates..
Really happy since we had not met for 6 years plus.
Everyone changes but only Yangyi seems to look the same.

I was happy that we got to meet up and update each other regarding our lives after poly...
Ah poly was fun!! so free and careless..
TAt meng eat lesser la your neck is almost gone! lol

Diao xue change alot too, maybe because she is wearing contacts...
Hahah really happy that i got a gd comment regarding my contacts too by the gers...
maybe i was really buang at poly LOL....
They keep saying that i slim down alot, hmm i dont remember that i was tat fat in poly..

Any DX share her story and experience for the pass 6 years. Make me realise, what i am going through is ok... i am feeling that i am like walking her path, since i am also thinking of open my own F&B.. lol

A life is not truly a life until you have experience everything

FEAR?

last night, i dream of something that isnt scary, but turn out to be scary to me...
You all must be wondering what the hell i am talking about again, must be my bad English again. Wahahaha

What the dream is about is that i dream of a woman. I dream that i got together with someone a female which is very familiar to me. WHO ... lol only my dear buddy ky would know ba..

I remember clearly that i walk with that person one some road.. And i got really scare.. very scare.. the shock wake me up...

HAHAaa, maybe i am fearful of relationship now... so fearful that something tat look happy and sweet, look really scary to me that i got a shock that would wake me up...

Anyway ... i am happy 2day i manage to close.. i did a very emotional close..
Maybe i should thanks the guys for the chance to train to present to a group of people.. I did a mini seminar to my group of friends last week, which took all my energy and almost killed me.. I didnt know that it was so difficult to do a seminar. And the things that i learn in walton really help me alot!

I didnt do my best, but i was so happy that i manage to convince them (YES i am doing mini seminar to a family ..) that what i have over here is really good and can help them in a long run!!
The mom of Small S even said that gary should join me and learn something from me..
I AM SO touch and feel that what i am doing is really meaningful, and life changing to me wahahha...

AND YES GOD IS PLAYING WITH ME AGAIN...
Some company call me up for a offer for a job again... DAmm when i was feeling so happy in walton this happen again... I still considering alot since i got alot of stuff i wanted to achieve now. All my dream, my career dreams have came back to me, and lots of fighting spirit is building on in me...
Joining a company will restrict me path to my big big dreams.
I would be just someone trying to climb the corporate ladder.. And finially truly become KY lol... Become stable and boring, and die eventually lol...

HAHA life is really about choices, now my one move is going to decided my future!
OMG DEAR GOD AH dont keep testing me la... tired i wanna sleep to reduce the formation of my dark eye.

CURSING>>!!!