Sad world or made to be sad.. But is it really sad?

i suddenly got alot of inspiration to write 2day..

I know that this world is a sad world.. Many people are hurt and destroy, as you grow up the more pain you receive... People dont believe in love, and they think that everything comes with a price... The more hurt you get the more defensive you get. Either you take it positively and become better and never hurt another person, or you take it negativity and become someone selfish bastard, who rather hurt others first then you yourself..

IS the society evil and corrupted, or it is the people who made it this way.. HIAZ chicken and egg thing...

If it is the people who made society, why cant it be made good, happy and hopeful...
I believe out there, there is still alot of nice and good people.. Who believe in true love, who believe in selfless giving..

Sad to say so i am not those nice good people... But i am working towards it..
I always wanted recognition for the good things i did.. i want something in return after i did something good.
And if i dont get it i get piss off.. And yes i admit, I am such an asshole.... BUT i believe many would agree with me most people are like tat...A selfless giving is never easy.....

I was giving motivation talk to one of my friends.. Really sad to find out that she was so similar to who i was when i was younger... NOT A GD THING TO BE ME..
When i was young, my mom will describe me as a very grey person.. I always tell my mom there is no meaning in living, all human is just waiting for their death.. And every time i would tell my mom i want to die lol... But before i do that, i wanna earn alot of money, and start bombing the whole world killing all the evil people around... Apparently someone beat me into bombing lol!!!!
Shit will i get catch if i say thing hmm.. i hope not ... lol...
I was someone who has no hope no faith.. Condemn by everyone in my life.. I wasnt a gd student, and not really that kind of good kids lol...
I keep saying that i was a half Christan, cause i believe in god, but i hate wat he is doing to me and i dont like church itself..

CAN YOU BELIEVE how much i change damm it lol...

Life is interesting many thing happen in my life, changes me, making me to be a better person.. i know i still got a long way to go but i am working hard..
I will keep my faith in goodness in life WAHHAHA...

Abit lost what i am writing again..
Anyway there are many examples of selfless love.. For example, a mother carrying a child for 9month and giving birth.. Even as a man i know, IT is not a easy task being a woman.
My love .. opps i dont think so lol...
Wat else damm lol... Aiyo alot la just have faith lol!

In conclusion, let what is bad happen around you, to make you a better person..
Believe there is love in this world, doesnt mean a fail relationship or a bad break up means the whole world there is no love... There will always be one person made for you. as long as you hold on to tat faith you will find tat person..

DAmm am i so positive now.. wat crap lol! THIs is the positive side of me writing.. negative side it too tired after negativity of 27 years!!!! but seriously even thought i not really ready prepare to another relationship..
i really do believe the one will come.. and my "TRUE" love will appear.. And whatever i am going through is making me a better person for tat person..
Kao!!! you are one damm lucky person that person who ever you are lol..