commented..

over the weekend, sab told me something that i should be happy or maybe sad .. LOL

She told me that GI said that i dress much better then the first time she saw me in service..
She commented that i dress VERY BUANG when i come service last time.
I was like laughing so badly... cause service is alwaysafter my chionging on sat night..
i would be in a very bad and blur state, cause normally i only had like 2hours of sleep that night lol!.
Also she told me that when she first saw my ex, she wonder how come someone like me
would be able to be with her.. lol

I believe most of my friends out there know that i dont really care about my appearance .

The first time GI saw me in zouk she had that who is this face when i said hi to her. I wasnt on my spec, and i am wearing a jeans and a polo t, i wasnt on my normal bermudas and tshit lol!

Guess i got too comfortable and start forgetting that "god require golden outfit, and human require a gd outfit" this common knowledge lol..

Ah i just only slack going to church ma.. lol

At least sab give a nice comment, she said "after buying skinny jeans , can see y i got my ex"
I WAS Laughing like mad, cause recently i have been attracting the wrong crowd..
GAYs and GAYS and gays...
LOL my ex is a very manly person maybe thats why... deep inside she is just a gay lol!!!!
And my ex-walton collegue commented that i shouldnt give that "Ying Dang" look all the time.. They say gays like it... i am like "i have smalls eyes la .." i shouldnt smile too much, i should look fierce woth big big eyes staring at everyone it is much better lol..

O nice reminder, that even that i am very comfortable to a place or a person, i should never slack on my appearance lol...

HAHA friends are so gd to have around... dumb dumb me ..

Angry!

Angry!!! angry.....
These few days, all i see is bad drivers. Crazy drivers, slow drivers...

Hiaz refer to my first post you will see my anger... lol!
there is this dumb guy who drive like 80km on the first lane hogging the road. When i highlighted him he still continue with his dumb speed hogging the road...
My father said just over take tat guy... After i over take, that guy start flashing light on me with his pathetic speed., just in a few sec i could even see him in my rear mirror.
Seriously that is way too pathetic.....
Or maybe god is telling me to slow down again.. haha

happy.. moving closer to my dreams..

2day is the first day that i truly start taking over some of the work in phillip...

ONE WORD tired....
it was a damm busy day...
picking up call to confirm trade..
confirm lending and borrowing..

click big number with my hand trembling...
looking at impossible numbers....

learning from all the senior ...

SBL really need to hands on then i know how come people keep telling me i am in a shit hole lol...

even thought my work is within the trading house of 830 to 530...
it is a crazy of unlimited work to do .. HAHAH scary.... maybe programming is more fun lol

But it is wat i really want to do... moving to the finanical world..
it is so beautiful... money is so beautiful lol...

during lunch time, i start digging infomation from my senoir colleague..
On how is phillip, and how come they work there for like 10 over years some even 20 plus years...
Some really interesting information i digged out !!!!...
I ask one of the senior SBL colleague why is she doing dealing now...
This colleague is not a simple dealer... she handle big, i say big client.. the number is way too way too ... due to my limited vocab.. i cannot find a word for it lol!!!

She told me "aiyo it is common for people to move out of SBL la.., alot of the prop trader and dealer in the company can from SBL.........!! and once they gd at trading they will ask to become a reminser..!!"
I AM LIKE WTH>>>>>>>>>>> ISNT THIS WAT I WANT >>>>>>>

sometime i really feel my life is like a exciting story... been thru hell, see heaven, then see hell again.. now heaven...
WA KAO ... but i believe the heaven i am seeing now will be there forever for me..

every gd little things is falling into place... MY SECRET...
my laws of attraction....
why the hell i didnt kno this earlier...
but if i know earlier i may not be ready for all this... life is somehow.. interesting.. and amazing.. tiring sometimes la lol!

i know i still got alot to learn and a long way to go,
feel so small but the possibility of growing is aLOT more ...
VEry excited in everything..... but i need to take step by step.. even it seem that the pace around me is speeding lol...

Happiness comes to you if you believe in it..
Success comes to you if you believe in it..

simple but meaningful

somethings some words in life are just plain old simple...

life could be simple...

happiness could be just having a small bread when u are really hungry..
happiness could be just like coming home after a tired day, and see ur hamster do some really cute stuff
happiness could be just lieing on ur bed and writing ur blog....

after a tired day of work i saw my dear hamster hachi did something tat is way too cute.
i clean up his tank, and as usual once i did tat he will be really excited going into his toliet/house...
he would roll on the sand and clean himself... way too cute...
but this time he did something more funny..
one of my friend msg me a pic of her cute hamster lieing on his back sleeping..
looking at how cute it is, i turn and look at hachi.
As usual he is cleaning himself on the sand rolling.. then he suddenly pick up one of his foot with his 2 hand, and start chewing on it.
WAHAHAH naturally he just lost his balance and fall on his back.. !!! argh i wanted to take a photo... but once the camera is out he stop doing it.. crap...

HAHA..
over my service last weekend i was reminded on something tat is so simple that i almost forgot about it..
About how to become successful in life... the method is so so simple...
Simply by building ur core strength...
Example....

someone will not get sick easily if he/she exercise everyday, eat healthy, have enough rest.
You will up ur core strength of health..

someone will be able to get gd result in exam if he/she study everyday, work hard and build on his/her core strength of wisdom.

i dont kno if anyone out there notice..
successful people are usually more hardworking then others, more humble then others...
over years of building their core, and not complain they become successfull..

i do agree there are some people that are successful and not hardworking and humble... but does their success stay long ?
usually it doesnt.....

simple thing like doing ur daily work, being hardwork and humble, serving others...
how many people out there can do it... how many.....

back to my exercise regime

gaining weight and losing my muscle...
i decided to start my exercise regime..

last night after work i meet cy for a run in bedok reservior...

It will be a ard 5km run.. after 4km i flaten... cy pace is way too much for me...
plus i was talking way too much while i run...

at the 4km mark i tried to sprint and i almost falling ... leg to weak LOL

Need alot more training...

guess i will be joining a gym soon ..

back to the corprate world (dreams part 2)

1 week plus has pass, time seem moving real fast..

Time really doesnt wait... It is coming to the end of 2009... the worst and the best and the biggest change year of my life....
It felt so long and yet so short...

I rmb a few weeks ago xx was comment that it felt so long for this year...
Maybe just this year it self he had been seeing me as much as he had for the past 3 years lol..

I was deeply touch for the past few weeks regarding the sermon on dreams...

I would dare to say i am a big dreamer... I believe lots of my friends would say the same ..
I always been dreaming about getting the best job earning big bucks..
Being a broker or trader.... semi retire at the age of 35..
And start my own cafe... LOL
They keep asking me you sure you can become or not ...

Dreams who dont have it... i believe everyone else out there will have a dream of their own..

Wanted to be rich, Live in a big big house, drive big big car...
Maybe someone else who have the dream of having someone to love ...
someone who love him/her alot...

Big big dreams like earn 10 billion and use it to buy a island then only let rich people to go to tat island to stay... (a dream of someone that i once know WAHAHHA)

Mine is pretty simple.. i may had say about this a million time..
Earn alot, semi retire at age 35 and own my own cafe... become multi-nation brand..
Live in a big big white bungalow, drive my SLK...
ERM woman... hmm lol!!

I DARE EACH OF u out there to state ur dream... DO you ever believe you can do it ..?

I know i can it is just a matter of time...

How many people out there willing to step out of their comfort zone and walk on the path of their dreamz?

One person i really respect is sabrina... even thought she always tease me, she is one of the woman that i respected the most..
Fighting for her own dream... doing the impossible...

Some may say their dream is impossible to achieve... i would just say they are cowards and YES BIG BIG COWARDS.
Even impossible is always saying "i m possible" (copyright from christina LOL)

I wouldnt want to split out all the godly message tat i believe in here...
But i would just like to encourage many people out there..
I did and have done it, encouraging someone to achieve her childhood dreams..
And now she is living it... she may not rmb or feel anything but
somehow i am very happy for her lol...

Whatever is stopping you to achieve your dream is urself and time....
Life is not like you ask for something and something will come to you...
only thing that you get thru hard work you will cherish it..

There are 4 reason why there is a delay in your dreams................
1.) There could be some other things that you have to do first...
(example suffer and rot, then you will awake and know what to do and start working hard towards it)

Ah i dont want to use god ... damm
2.) God is giving you the time to get yourself ready for the responsibility that your dreams carry.
(for example, maybe you want to be some big fuck CEO, if you are not mature and not responsible enough, how are you going to manage ur employee how are you going to take the responsibility of thousand of employee lifes..)

3.) Lazy people want much but get little, but hardworking people get wat he want.. eventually lol.... Passion in wat you do is very important..
so i still believe you must do wat you love in order to be successful...

4.) time is required for you to deal with you own problem, your own weakness... without clearing you own weakness you never become successful..

I myself is a very gd example..
even i had gone thru alot this year, but i know it is not enough for me..
I need more time to strengthen myself..
2years time i will go to the front desk (even i am counted as in the front desk now) and fight for my dream...

take note of the gd and throw away all the bad LOL
sorry if i offended anyone lol!!!

Mango cheese cake for sale lol

and yes beautiful cheese cake and the most delicious one hehe

Most scary monster

Monster, devil...
Big huge dangerous man holding a gun...

Can they hurt you?
Ha, what can they do ? at most hurt you physically, kill you?

Somehow i suddenly got a thought tat, nothing can hurt you as much as the one you love the most hurt you.. Betrayal!!?

I was quite disappointed with my bro sticking his soul into his world again..
last time i tried to get in his world by join his gaming world, and tried to understand him.
i thought i can drag him back, but now he is going back again...

I feel that i had let him down as a brother... forget about him for the last 2years..
i thought that he had grow up, or simply i was selfish, i only care about myself...
on way or the other i lost my soul too, punishment .........

why should i hold on to something in the past that hurt me and not move on .......

I trying to save everything around me... luckily my friends are back with me ...
Career is picking up... i going towards my dream... currently in phillips and working in the trading room.. DREAM close lol.. Everything will fall into my planning .. gogogo !

35 i will open my own cafe... and be a fund manager...

Still there is alot of work and alot more to do... hiaz i really hope i could get back wat i had last time ...

There is still one dark dark area in my life, tat made me so difficult to trust again..
trust love? ... or believe tat there is true love again...
i wonder why i am coming back to this thought again...
maybe the pain in me had never left..
maybe i just hid the pain...
or maybe i am really just a silly man....

i am still praying to let myself walk out of this, believe tat love is something that could happen again..

Never let down the person that love you the most!...

traveling..

I suddenly feel like writing.... like always i have alot of messy thoughts in me ...

Ytd was a fun day of traveling...
In the mid morning, i drove to novena to meet this cute nice friend of mine who want to give me bathing sand for my dear hamster hachi.. I think she got this gift which her hamster doesnt really use..
I really wanted to get some stuff for her hamster, BB too hmm i will think of something.

It was pouring really heavily, which mess up my plans of going to Mad Jack.. This really nice aus fish and chip eatery .. We decided to go somewhere dry, CCK lol..... Cause i suddenly got this craving to eat pepper lunch.. hehe Had a really nice lunch, then we went walking ard in cck and start looking in the pet shop..

I think she is ps to look at gers stuff.. Little to her knowledge, looking at gers stuff is too normal to me LOL.... name it and i know it LOL

After sending her home, i went in search for my RED MAN.... I thought there is only 1 red man in jurong.. i was too used of going there LOL..
Announcement, jurong red man is gone...
After checking the website, then i reliaze that there is a Red Man branch in Bedok all this while LOL... dumb dumb me..

After my failed search of red man, i took a trip to kaki buki to deal with one of the small errand for my mom... then finally i got home... LONG day of traveling..

In the even jasper asked me to join him for dinner... HE keep asking me to go toa payoh..
I was damm piss cause of the full day of traveling ..
Told him off, feel really bad i am sorry...

In the end met him and cy at east coast.. hmm memories LOL

Dreams part 1

Finally after so much struggle, i decided to continue my path... thru the bank path... LOL
Fight for the dream of being a broker/trader...

Why do i wanted to do tat? And why broker/trader?
Why not banker ?

Seriously i sometimes i really dont understand what i really want..
But i know in the end what i wanted...
Open my own cafe.. have a business of my own..
Be one of the best trader ard...

Hmm maybe i always know what i want it is just tat i didnt see it lol..

I feel tat Walton is just a journey that i had to go thru to build up certain skills that i am lacking of..
I really feel very thankful for all the people in there that had teaches me all the stuff...
Even it is just a short period of time, but the amount of knowledge that i gain from there will help me alot in the future..

Now i had make all the plans of how to achieve the dream that i have..
decided to focus on my career now ..... haha shouldnt let other things distract me...WAHAH

Now i am looking forward to the trip to taiwan next month.. and joining JPmorgan next year HEHE happy...

It was due to the weekend service and something happen in the office that make my decision firmer..
I was going crazy and weeping like hell during the service, like wat i normally tell sab and fu, holy spirit LOL...
This was the 2nd time that i feel so affect, or so blessed..
Normally i pray and pray, and during weekend service, god would give me the answer to my question..
But this time i had been praying for weeks, and i wasnt getting anywhere...
Holding my faith strongly, after 3weeks, this service answer everything...
God want me to go serve LOL...
Thats y i am weeping, cause the promise i had with HIM is in 10-15 years time, i will achieve what i want, and i will act as a testimonial, finally owning my own business and serving in the ministry just like our pastor....
Pls just give me the time... but is it wat i want or wat he want for me is more important..
Sometime i feel that being a blind idiot is really better LOL...
Having knowledge is really a sin LOL.... And yet human is always seeking for it..


Hmm tired .. so many thing running in my mind ...