light and darkness

it has been quite some time since i blog.

My life is getting busier everyday and somehow i am becoming happier too.
I could be a workaholic.

My work in Phillip is getting heavier as the time passes IT IS ONLY 2month plus wth.. Heavy in terms of the amount understanding i need to have in the financial world. So many stuff i dont even have a slightest bit of understanding. In term of my area of work i had gotten a hang of it, and now my daily work could be settle in the afternoon. Now i trying to settle my department website to do abit of marketing work for our product.
I am quite delighted that my manager let me talk to an external client today, i remember the first time i talk to the client i kana scold like mad.. Hey i had never been in this line ho.
She did correct a few of my mistake, practise makes perfect... i think i am ready to handle external client now. (external clients are dangerous they complain to MAS lol)

Side track abit, my calling smoking skill is really gd. 9 out of 10 times i can trick someone thinking that i am some sale person calling them lol. These 2 months of my calling time is like my normal whole year of calling time Wahahha.

Some bad thing happen, i guess i was too rush and i didnt pass my test... Got to buck up in reading and studying.. a LONG LONG WAY TO GO.

Had KPI session with bunch of directors today, why the hell am i ask to sit in...

But i had been pushing myself to the limit. I took up alot of extra work. Or you could say that my current "Yes" nature is giving me alot of work.

I was informed last week Friday to be the OIC of the CNY Event..Happy I had the favour of the lord!!!With such little time, and little man power.. IT seems impossible at first.
Within the first few days, I got to know alot of directors.
i even got the favour of the most powerful woman in my company..
Proven I am a auntie killer !! WAHAHAH...

And most of the stuff had been settled and organized by 2day.
Another happy things is that i always wanted to do something good for the public, ever since i CHANGE. . .. lol
Currently i am also organizing a charity drive for the Haiti earthquake Victims...
I really hope i could collect a huge fund and help those people over there..HEHE

Lots of stuff to learn lots of stuff to do.. hope i would be able to do more to help and serve more people hehe .. thats the vision i had now .. and more to come.

And why did i name my entry as light and darkness..
I understand darkness: 7sins... experience...
I used my anger and revengeful strength to push through my starting point of my life..
it doesnt feel gd even i manage to climb up lol..
Been through the darkest moment of my life..

I understand light beautiful life of being positive and nice..
It pull me through my darkest moment of my life ..

Now i am dangling in between. some words, some ones is interfering my believe ..
i feel some how tired sad .. tired of human..

Some out there may have heard of the story about lucifer, the lord of darkness, some call him the devil himself..
Lucifer was an fallen angel.
one of a few story that i seen was describing that Lucifer was one of the most power angel. He love god alot but he despise human. Man are full of flaws, full of sin...
He dont understand why god love Man so much, he dont understand why. End up he disobey the lord and become a fallen angel..

Some how i understand how Lucifer feels.. hahah
I will still try my best to love just like how my lord loves his people.. But i am a christian of my own views no one and nothing can change how i think.

I do feel one of my dearest friend, if he see this..
i would want him to learn more about chirstianity... it hurts that he had so much misunderstanding ..